Anith’s Blog

the Lollapalooza ’26 experience

2026-01-31T00:00:00Z

This past week I was in Mumbai for Lollapalooza India 2026, and while the acts hadn’t excited me when I first booked the early bird ticket, I was completely blown away by the overall experience. It was also my first concert experience in a LONG time, so me feeling Amazed would be a gross understatement. I suppose it’s a feeling that I can’t quite put into words.

Also, Mumbai is my favorite city now.

Friday, Jan 23

I’d booked tickets and the hotel stay with my sister (Anks) and brother-in-law (Francis). We landed in Navi Mumbai on Friday and had booked a cab to travel to BKC (Bandra area), which took us about 1-1.5 hours. Navi Mumbai felt a tad surreal / strange to me, for reasons I still do not know.

The first thing I did after checking in to the hotel was to have Vada Pav. I did that at multiple places and the taste was pretty consistent everywhere. Magical. ✨

I was then working for the rest of the day. Lots of testing (and vibing) with my coworkers.

Afterwards, in the evening, we had gone to a local joint called Soul Fry, which was packed and we were sat outside. We had some tasty food (Dal and steamed rice in Konkan style — it was spicy), and a couple of drinks (People’s Lager). Delicious.

I kept saying, "Ahhh — that hits the spot!," after each sip of my lager — to the immense displeasure and disgust of Anks who cringed, and asked if I was a 47 year old Dad in a beer advertisement. Needless to say, I laughed. A lot.

The place also had karaoke; it had great demand and we had to wait for our chance. We sang In the End, by Linkin Park (prepping for the concert), and Francis sang R U Mine?, by Arctic Monkeys. Great fun overall!

We stayed up until 2 AM or so, and it indeed is the city that never sleeps. We even took an auto on a whim to explore the city late into the night (Francis was buzzed, and I too — a tad bit, but I was OK. I ended up babysitting him.)

We then went back to the hotel (in the same auto) and crashed. Hard.

Saturday, Jan 24 (Day 1)

There wasn’t much activity on the first day. I woke up super early and was very hungry, so I immediately got around to seeing where I could grab some food.

I wanted to experience Mumbai like a local by myself. I walked about until I found a stall that sold Puri Bhaji. It only costed 40 rupees (unlimited Puris too!) That tasted pretty great, although they were unhealthy. I then went to a McDonald's that was RIGHT nearby and grabbed myself a cup of Cappuccino.

I then strolled around randomly some more until afternoon, where I had gone back to the hotel to get ready for Lollapalooza Day 1. We all got ready, hired a cab, and headed to the venue. Oh, also we all wore wristbands that acted both like our passes and wallets — it had a QR code that could be used to add money / top-up existing funds.

We reached by 4:30 PM. In terms of the venue itself — it was huge, and was a long walk to the inside. (It was at a horse racing course.) Lots of walking. Lots of people.

It had four stages — the main / big one was called "BudX", and the other ones were "H&M", "Alternative", and "Perry's x Keep Walking". We had gone to all stages, except for the last one (which mainly played Electronic music.)

Day 1 was OK in terms of the crowds. There wasn’t much crowd, compared to the second day. The first act we saw was (1) Fujii Kaze. It was great, although none of us could understand the lyrics (there were subtitles, though.) The sensuality the man carried. We didn’t stay long though, as we didn’t feel the vibe.

We then headed to the Alternative stage, where an Indian fusion band called (2) Prithvi Presents was playing. This one, we stayed until the end of their set — it was pretty compelling. I even went up front, wading through the crowd, and took a couple of videos.

The third act was a combined one by (3) Homixide Gang / Destroy Lonely, both an hip-hop collective. The hype was REAL, and I sorta liked it. I was actually jumping about to some of the songs they played.

But — it also got dangerous as there was some rough moshing. The act even stopped their show and went back in. An emcee then came out and asked people to stop with the moshing and ensured people were safe, so the artists could get on with their show.

We didn’t stay here long either as we weren’t feeling it, and headed back instead to the Alternative stage, where we saw a band called (4) The Midnight play. The vibes were sublime here; synthpop at its finest.

After all that, MAN. The main act over at H&M was (5) YUNGBLUD. It was my first time (I had never heard of him before), and I’m a fan now. He was very very good. He also cried as he was performing some of his encore songs (Ghosts, I got emotional too). It was all very real, and was amazing. I wish I could see / experience it again. He even made a vow to visit India every year from now on!

The last act of the day was (6) Playboi Carti, over at the main stage. This also was very hype — I again jumped around a lot to the songs. I was feeling the energy, although it was SUPER loud. We didn’t stay long here either, as we weren’t vibe-matching.

Day 1 was amazing. It was a welcome surprise, and I’m happy that I discovered some great new artists.

Sunday, Jan 25 (Day 2)

This day began with us exploring a local mall in Bandra. I was surprised to see virtually NO traffic on the roads on a Sunday, I mean come on. We visited the mall first because I had wanted to buy a fanny pack. We then went to a Starbucks to grab some coffee, and visited another café called The Nutcracker, which had some great vegetarian food.

After all that, we went around sightseeing — specifically to Marine Drive, and Nariman Point, we walked around a bit until late afternoon, and then decided to go to the venue.

The second day had a HUGE crowd. We didn’t see many acts this day, as we wanted to reserve our spot for Linkin Park. The first thing Francis and I did when we got in was to grab a couple of beers. Then we all went to find a good place within the already forming crowd, and camped at around 4:30 in the afternoon. It was a long wait until 7:55, when Linkin Park was scheduled to play.

The first act playing was (1) Calum Scott — he was pretty smooth. I liked it. Not much to say otherwise.

The second act was (2) Bloodywood. I was looking forward to this, as I had heard a couple of songs by pure chance earlier last year. There was a lot of headbanging and jumping for me, and my neck and shoulders were pretty sore the next day. The band encouraged people to mosh and I was screaming NOOOO at the top of my lungs, and yet people moshed — close to us, too. There was a lot of push/pull in the sea of people around, and a person or two even got hurt.

And then, we waited for the main/headlining act (4) Linkin Park. It was a long wait. Long enough to make a few new friends while standing there, collectively killing time.

A lot of people behind me were irritated and asked me to move because they couldn’t see anything (I’m tall). My patience was already thin, and I verbally snapped back at them. Not my proudest moment, admittedly. Francis and my newly made friends stepped in, backed me, and calmed me down.

Then the countdown appeared — around the 10-minute mark. The second the crowd saw the timer, everyone completely lost it.

The band then came out and they had an AMAZING show, with lasers and a great light show. They opened with an instrumental and broke into Somewhere I Belong, and ended their whole set with Faint. I think they played about 25 or 27 songs, and I sang to almost all of them. It was surreal to see my favourite band play LIVE, right in front of me. I mean, my 13 year old self would have had his mind blown if he knew the day would come.

The day ended, with all of us taking a cab to go to a restaurant. I actually remember feeling quite low / down afterwards — Francis told me I was experiencing something called a post-concert depression. I didn’t know that was even a thing (I even looked it up now, as I was writing this post.) Oh it’s real.

After the restaurant stop, we took another cab to go to back to Marine Drive at 1 AM, and found another place called Bachelorr’s, where we had some sandwiches and ice creams. After all that, we decided to head back to the hotel. I was still feeling low and was terribly exhausted.

Day 2 was worth it. I had a sore throat / voice the next day, and was aching all over, but it was WORTH it. I would do it again. Totally.

Monday, Jan 26

I was feeling better, although still sore everywhere. It was checkout day, and I quickly got ready, packed everything, and we went to have some more last-minute Vada Pav, on our way to the airport.

I feel like I’ve already written a lot, and I don’t quite know how to summarise this, but it was an AMAZING experience, and I am already looking forward to going the next year!

👉 Oh, and my next concert: Tame Impala. Amsterdam. May 4. (Hopefully.) Not me buying a ticket, without planning travel and stay. 🙃

2025, a recap

2025-12-29T00:00:00Z

December came and went without this post taking shape. It passed quickly, in that familiar end-of-year blur.

I opened a blank page more than once, stared at the blinking cursor, typed a line or two, and closed it again. I put off writing this year’s recap post for longer than usual — not because of resistance or procrastination, but more out of a sense that I didn’t yet know what shape it needed to take. There’s nothing dramatic in that.

Just like last year and the year before that, if I had to choose a couple of (key)words for 2025, it would be resilience and patience. Mostly patience.

I’ve noticed how much more comfortable I’ve become sitting with my feelings, and how differently I relate to patience, more generally. Not stating this in any grand or triumphant fashion, more in the quieter way of continuing to show up, keeping things moving, and doing what needed to be done.

What held

Some things held this year. Showing up when needed. Keeping things moving even on days when motivation was low. Routines I didn’t overthink.

A few folks stayed constant too, and I’m deeply grateful to them for that. Their presence and support mattered, and I learned a great deal from them. It never felt like something I had to earn or manage; it was just there.

I also stayed fairly consistent with my workouts this year. I didn’t have any major goals attached. Just movement, routine, and the reassurance of doing something for myself most days. It helped channel a lot of built-up restlessness and internalisation.

Some practical changes helped as well. Having my own car still feels good — fewer dependencies, more control over when and how I move through the city. I didn’t use it as much as I might have (especially with regard to my commute), partly because heavy traffic feels overwhelming to me, but even having the option made a difference.

The motorcycle I bought offered something different, in its own way. Short rides that cleared my head. A sense of movement that wasn’t about getting anywhere quickly, just about being present — especially during early mornings or late nights.

Building on last year, I continued putting some distance between myself and social media this year. Small joys, intentionally so. I still dip into watching reels now and then mostly to switch my brain off for a bit, but it no longer feels like something I need to keep up with.

It hasn’t all been easy, and I probably haven’t always handled things gracefully. But I do feel like I’m growing. Not by hardening, but by learning how to stay with things a little longer than I used to.

What frayed

Some things frayed around the edges this year. Nothing too major — just enough to feel. Energy wasn’t always where I wanted it to be, and certain efforts asked for more than they gave back. There were a lot of moments when I felt stretched thin, even if I didn’t always name it that way at the time.

Some days took more out of me than I expected, especially in social or work settings. I didn’t always understand why in the moment — only that I needed more recovery than usual.

Travel was one of the things that didn’t quite find its place this year. I traveled less than I would have liked, and it quietly slipped out of reach.

Reading became harder to sustain this year, especially on days when focus felt thin. I managed to finish a few longer books, but the rhythm around reading was slower and a bit fragmented.

I noticed the same pattern elsewhere. My workouts weren’t the reliable reset I hoped they would be. Some weeks they carried me; other weeks they asked for more energy than my body had to give.

I’m learning to notice those signs earlier now. To read tiredness / exhaustion not as failure, but as information. To slow down without needing a major reason.

Even so, I notice that I haven’t lost a certain sense of hope and optimism. It would be easy to become more cynical, or to harden around all of this — but that hasn’t happened. I am very aware of how easily that could shift, and I don’t take it for granted.

What shifted (or is shifting)

One subtle shift this year was how I respond to myself in the middle of things. I don’t rush to resolve or explain my feelings as quickly as I used to. There’s more room to pause, to sit with uncertainty, and to let things unfold without immediately trying to make sense of them.

Another shift this year was learning to rebuild confidence in small, uneven ways. Not all at once, and not without doubt — but gradually, when things felt hard or unclear.

I’ve also become more accepting of things being unfinished — thoughts that don’t land cleanly, days that don’t add up, feelings that pass without clarity. I don’t see that as something to fix anymore. If anything, it feels like a kind of trust and a belief that I’m learning to live with.

What I’m open to

Lately, I’ve felt a pull toward making more space for the things that help me feel awake and engaged. I want to return to generative art — not with any expectations around output or consistency, but simply for the act of making and experimenting again.

I want to write a lot more too, letting words exist without always needing them to resolve into something tidy or finished. I shared a draft post or two this year, but want to share some more interesting stuff from my Notes.

I’m also open to travelling more, even if it’s slow or unplanned. Moving through unfamiliar places has a way of resetting my perspective, and I’ve missed that a lot.

More than anything, I’m interested in living a bit more deliberately. Stepping into moments instead of watching them pass by. Making room for curiosity, movement, and expression. I don’t want to make any grand promises or resolutions. I’m trusting that this, in itself, is enough of a direction for now.

sprezzatura

2025-09-28T00:00:00Z

Yesterday I learned a new word: sprezzatura, and it feels like something I’ve been brushing against for years without ever knowing its name. It’s an Italian word describing the art of effortlessness, of appearing natural, as though things simply ‘fell into place.’

In my twenties, I lived that way without trying. I’d walk out of the house with my hair a mess, bedhead that somehow carried me through the day. It wasn’t style, it wasn’t statement — it was just me unbothered. And there was a strange kind of ease in that, something that I look back on now with a little fondness. Maybe that unselfconscious naturalness was closer to true sprezzatura than I initially thought. After all, what could be more effortless than not trying at all?

As I’ve grown older, I find myself more deliberate, especially with clothes, to the point that I have curated a Pinterest board for style inspiration. But I also want that ‘deliberateness’ to fade. I don’t want to look like I’ve spent an hour in front of the mirror, even if I have. I want a shirt that drapes as though it always belonged on me, trousers that move without stiffness, shoes that look worn-in and alive. No fuss, no frills, no theatrics or performance. Just me, simply visible.

I find myself drawn to examples of this quality elsewhere. I think of the way people in Italy are often described: men in linen shirts rolled carelessly at the sleeves, women in dresses that seem to catch the breeze as if by chance, leather shoes softened by years of walking. The clothes never weigh them down; they seem to breathe through them. Even from a distance, I can tell the difference (I’ve never been to Italy.) It’s not extravagance, it’s not polish. It is that invisible ease that makes it beautiful.

And maybe that’s why the word has stayed with me? Because, at the end of the day, sprezzatura isn’t about clothes at all. It’s about a way of moving through the world with calm, with lightness. To do something well, but never appear consumed by the doing. To let imperfections stay visible, even become part of the beauty.

I’m learning, slowly, to invite this spirit into my life. To resist the urge to overthink, to let conversations unfold naturally (which they do, I mean I’m quite easy to talk to, if I do say so myself), to trust that my instincts often know better than my anxious mind. In small moments, I practice asking: does this feel like me? If it does, then it’s enough.

Maybe sprezzatura is really about that quiet confidence — the grace of letting things be just so, and no more.

passed on, not taught

2025-07-12T00:00:00Z

I’m not old. Not even close.
But I’ve lived long enough to notice a few things.
Things I used to rush past.
Things I used to think didn’t apply to me.
Now, they catch my attention like small flickers in the corner of my eye.

This isn’t advice. It’s just what I’ve seen.
And a few things others passed on to me, quietly.

—

There is a kind of person who shows up early but never announces it.
They sit back during the noise.
They take their time.
They speak when the room needs it, not when they do.

I used to overlook people like that.

Now I try to be one.

—

I’ve failed in ways that don’t make good stories.
Quiet failures. The kind that slowly shape you without anyone noticing.

And even those failures are worth something.
So when someone is in a similar situation, I pass it on.

Not loudly, not to prove a point.
Just because someone once did the same for me.

—

I’ve learned not to complain. Not even to myself.
Not because everything’s been fine —
some of the things that shaped me were anything but.

Still, I try to pass on the gentler parts.
The ones that helped me stay open, even then.

—

Call it maturity. Or just paying attention.
Not certainty.
A kind of stillness that isn’t empty, just earned.

With time, you start to carry things differently.
Not as answers, but as lived moments.
A few mistakes you’ve made.
A few beliefs you had to let go of.
A few questions that still keep you company.

All of it, just quietly honest.

Things I’ve learned the hard way.
Things that used to feel true, but no longer do.
Things I’m still trying to figure out.

—

I’ve grown to love and admire people who don’t try to prove anything.
The ones who stay kind even when no one returns it.
The ones who are too experienced to be naive, and too open to be cynical.

I think the world needs more of them.
Or maybe we just need to notice them more.

If nothing else, I’d like to become one.
Or quietly pass along their stories to whoever’s next.

[Draft] 1,000 steps: a log

2025-06-23T00:00:00Z

(Might delete later. I opened the Voice Memos app on my phone and found these old logs I recorded. They made me laugh.)

I found a couple of voice memos from 2017. I used to record these logs pretty often though I can't quite remember why. I wish I could.

These were recorded during the 1,000 Steps trail in Dandenong — which is actually quite difficult for an inexperienced hiker. My body had absolutely no business attempting it at the time. Still, I made it to the end. I like to think I’d fare better now.

19 March 2017

Log 4

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Transcript:
Michael: The Sun?... is yellow?...
Me: No.
Michael: ...turning to Blue?
Me: The light is white. It just appears yellow because of the... the atmosphere.
Tiarne: Science.
Michael: [Laughs]
Michael: I don't get it.

Log 5

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Transcript:
Me: Log five. I'm climbing up the uh 1,000 steps uh in Upper Ferntree Gully. And there's a lot of steps... I don't even know how the steps got here... And it's very tiring. I've had to stop four or five times... and... the others have gone on without me. It's 2:30 p.m. Signing out.

Log 7

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Transcript:
Me: Log seven. It's 2:43 p.m., and I'm walking further into the trail. They told me it's a 15 minute walk, and I'm literally gasping for air. So it's pretty... pretty bad. Signing out.

the flâneur

2025-06-08T00:00:00Z

There’s something in wandering without needing to be anywhere. Just walking for no real reason, letting the city reveal itself in its quiet parts. Most things seem to move faster only when someone begins to move slowly beside them. The one figure not in a hurry makes the rest of the world seem as though it is.

The flâneur, if one is to believe the old Parisian idea, is a lone stroller — often observing and absorbing. Straddling the border between not participating and not being aloof. Not minding the pace, not minding the setting, but they have a willingness to pause at times, and take it all in.

They begin to notice things that don’t ask to be noticed. The slight tilt of a bicycle leaning against a gate, as if leaning just a bit too deliberately. A window always open to the same degree, regardless of weather. A pair of shoes outside a door they've never once seen open.

Once, the flâneur took note of a cat curled beneath a parked car. It didn’t blink when they passed. It just stared unwaveringly. They watched back. Neither moved. After a while, the flâneur continued walking, and the cat stayed with them. (Not literally.)

Sometimes, a curtain shifts at the exact second they look up. A light flickers on in a room they were sure was empty. These aren’t just events. They perhaps feel like fragments of a softer logic to them; one the city whispers only to those not in motion.

To a flâneur, the city begins to feel less like a place and more like a series of gestures. A forgotten receipt stuck to the pavement by old rain. The low drone of an air conditioner above a door no one uses. A man sitting still on a plastic chair outside his tiny shop. All of it part of the same quiet rhythm.

This kind of walking dissolves sequence. The flâneur stops needing to understand what anything means. If something catches their attention, they pause. If not, they drift on. It's that simple. And yet even as they move on, the things remain.

Some moments are lost instantly. Others linger for days. It doesn’t lead anywhere. It doesn’t resolve anything. But to a flâneur, it allows something rare: the chance to remain still while everything else keeps moving. And sometimes, that stillness is enough.

The flâneur doesn’t chase certainty. They wait. When something appears, they simply notice. And that’s enough, too. They keep walking.

After all, what is ever really there? What part of the world isn’t filtered through one's mood, memory, or stray thought?

ask

2025-04-18T00:00:00Z

Hi _____,

Since childhood, you believed strength meant doing everything on your own. You learned that early on — because you had to.

When something hard came your way, you took it on alone. If you didn’t know how to do something, you taught yourself and figured it out. And when you were overwhelmed, I noticed that you often kept going — quiet, tightly wound, and silent — hoping no one would notice the weight you carried.

But over time, that self-reliance can become a prison. Independence is valuable, yes — but without connection, it can turn into loneliness. Eventually, your burdens grow too heavy to carry on your own.

I know asking for help can feel like you’re a burden, like you’re imposing. But sometimes, asking is the first step toward connection.

I know you carry a fear of rejection when reaching out. I’ve seen it — that hesitation, that quiet wondering if you’re too much. But at some point, you have to take the risk.

Even now, asking for help can still feel unfamiliar. I know what it’s like to lie awake, second-guessing, turning everything over in your mind. But with time — and a little courage — you can learn to reach out.

Here are a few gentle ways to begin:

“Can I ask your advice?”
“I feel lost — will you help me find my way?”
“I’m struggling — are you available to talk?”

Asking is not giving up; it is admitting that we all need each other. It’s a reminder that none of us were meant to do this alone. We are all experiencing and living life for the first time, after all.

Let us both remember to reach out, lean on friends, and let kindness in. We can be strong together.

And if you ever forget — come back to this. Read it slowly. Let it remind you:

You are allowed to ask.
You are allowed to be held.

thoughts about nothing

2025-04-12T00:00:00Z

Right now, I’m sitting at my desk, watching the cursor blink on a blank page. It’s not demanding, but it does feel expectant. I don’t have anything profound on my mind. No big lesson. No takeaways.

I'll admit — I am tired, of late. I’ve been giving and pouring a lot out lately, and somewhere along the way, I forgot to take a pause. It's all good, though. I’m not complaining, just noticing and acknowledging.

I originally didn't want to spend time thinking or doing anything today. I am reminded of a dear friend of mine — who once challenged me to do absolutely nothing for a day — simply rest, recharge, and just 'be'. She made it sound easier than it seems, for my mind is very active, restless, with a constant urge to do something. Anything.

I think back to my 20s, a time when I was constantly on the run—hoping to learn something, do something, achieve something. Now, as I’ve just begun my 30s, I find myself with a different perspective. While all the skills I’ve gained along the way are valuable, I’m starting to see that there’s more to life than just the constant hustle and grind.

I reckon I've gotten better at being still now. I don't do much in terms of practicing it — I think journaling definitely helps. I've tried Meditating in the past, but it hasn't worked in the way I hoped. I still close my eyes on occasion, pay attention to my breath, and take note of the thoughts that come to mind — but it only works to a certain extent.

If anything, I can always think of my friend — well, two people in my life actually — who have this calm, composed, and an easy demeanor about them. As I write this, I'm reminded of a quote from Marcus Aurelius in Meditations.

Whenever you want to cheer yourself up, consider the good qualities of your companions, for example, the energy of one, the modesty of another, the generosity of yet another, and some other quality of another; for nothing cheers the heart as much as the images of excellence reflected in the character of our companions, all brought before us as fully as possible. Therefore, keep these images ready at hand.

I am writing this primarily from a need to reconnect with myself. To clear my hazy mind. Writing doesn’t fix the exhaustion, but it helps me sit with it. It gives it shape.

I used to think I had to wait for clarity before I could write — that I needed a clean idea. But I’m learning that writing can also be a way of checking in — with myself, with the moment.

So here I am. Writing. Thoughts about mostly nothing. Not because I have answers, or even the energy, but because I wanted to feel a little more connected — to myself, to the stillness, to whoever might be reading this and nodding along.

If that’s you - hi. I hope you’re being gentle with your own in-between moments too.

a late night rendezvous

2025-04-05T00:00:00Z

Hawthorn, VIC. May 2017.

I was walking down Glenferrie Road around midnight, jacket zipped, hands in pockets, just trying to get home. The crossing stood as a silent juncture — and it was there that the threads of fate wove an unexpected encounter.

Two figures emerged from my left, stumbling through the night’s haze. Laughter. The uneven rhythm of footsteps. A chance meeting — unforeseen, unusual. One of them, a guy, locked eyes and walked up to me, a complete stranger.

"Where ya goin'? Can we come with you?” he asked, breathless.

I didn’t answer. Just kept walking, a little more aware of my pace. I wasn’t sure what they wanted.

"We got kicked out of a hotel," said the guy — tall, red-headed, now trailing a step behind me.

The girl, blonde and flushed, let out a short laugh. "We didn’t get kicked out," she said, swaying slightly as she nudged him. "Anyway... can we walk with you?"

Again, I didn’t answer. They were both clearly drunk, and I wasn't sure who they thought they were talking to. But they didn’t wait — just naturally fell in step beside me.

"We came to meet a friend," she said. "But he never showed up."

"Yeah, we’re kind of on our own now— where ya goin'?" he asked again.

I told them I was just heading home. They acted like that was a perfectly reasonable destination for all three of us.

I wasn’t about to take them back with me but they seemed harmless enough. That alone felt like reason enough to keep walking with them, up and down the street.

She asked me what I was doing, then interrupted halfway through my answer to say, "You’ve got a nice voice."

I smiled, not quite sure what to do with that. "Thanks," I said, still smiling — still a little thrown by the randomness of the night.

"See? I never get compliments like that," the guy said.

(She snapped back at him with a line that I don't fully remember anymore.)

We all shared a laugh after the friendly banter.

At some point, he leaned against me like I was a railing. She walked just ahead of us, singing something half-remembered under her breath. The streets were mostly empty. There was nowhere to be, so we didn’t rush.

We sat on a lonesome bench along the street — me in the middle, without meaning to be. I glanced at them and asked, "So... what's the plan, guys?"

She frowned a little, swaying gently. "I don’t know," she said, exasperated, possibly a bit irritated by my question.

The guy, who had gone quiet, gave a helpless shrug. He was slouched forward, elbows on his knees, eyes following cars like they were thoughts he couldn’t hold onto.

Then she turned to me, suddenly earnest. "Will you come with us? Please. I’ll pay you. I’ll pay you fifty dollars," she said, gripping my arm.

I blinked. "You don’t have to pay me," I said. "Where are you guys from?"

She rolled her eyes, like the question didn’t matter. Then, after a beat — "Bundoora."

The guy glanced over at that, like he’d just remembered where he was. Bundoora was a ways off. I briefly thought about booking them an Uber — just getting them somewhere safe.

She continued, "We were at a party in a hotel nearby. Our friend was supposed to be here."

I looked between them and asked again, "So, what’s the plan now?"

She didn’t answer — just looped her arm through mine and stood up. “Let’s go back,” she said. "Just for a drink."

The guy stood too, slowly. "We could try," he said, more to himself than anyone else.

As we walked, she leaned into me for support, her steps uneven. She kept calling it The Peacock Hotel, though I knew that wasn’t a real place. We finally stalled outside a bar that students liked for cheap Tuesday drinks — fitting, since they both looked like they hadn’t been out of university long.

Meanwhile, she was rummaging through her bag. "I had fifty dollars," she said. Out came a 50 cent coin (which in hindsight is pretty funny). "I swear I was gonna pay you," she said.

"You don’t need to," I insisted.

The guy let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head.

Then, almost as if remembering something mid-thought: "God, I’m starving." She looked up. "You coming?" she asked him. Then to me: "You too?"

Before I could answer, she grabbed his hand and started across the road toward a late-night convenience store. Then she turned back to me. "Promise me you'll meet me again — pinky promise," she said, holding out her little finger.

We sealed the promise with a pinky in the air, and then — in a flash of impulsive haste — she darted across the street.

"Yeah, thanks mate," he said, giving me a sideways hug — sloppy, but affectionate — before jogging after her.

I stood back and watched them for a while. Soon, they disappeared inside the convenience store.

I turned and walked the rest of the way home, carrying a little of their warmth with me. I never saw them again.

a place to rest

2025-03-30T00:00:00Z

The days are getting hotter; sunlight blares in with all its might, turning my room muggy by 8 AM. Not complaining. Everything is quiet, and I spend time making art, playing my guitar, and letting my thoughts settle.

Trying to be resilient — one day at a time. Not rushing. Just showing up, being present, doing the work. Some days feel long, but I trust that I am where I need to be.

Learning to sit with discomfort instead of fighting it, to accept what I cannot control, and to trust that even slow progress is still progress.

I don’t suppress the hard days, but I don’t let them dictate the course of my life either. Some things are worth feeling deeply, and some things are simply noise. I’m learning to tell the difference. Some days are quieter than others, but solitude is not emptiness. Even in stillness, there is something to hold onto.

Solitude teaches patience, and patience shapes what I create. I practice, I create, I learn. And though the days are often quiet, I remind myself that being alone doesn’t mean being lost.

People come and go, like shadows shifting with the sun, but I keep moving. I don’t know where this path leads, but I’m learning to trust the journey. For now, I let things unfold, slow and steady.

2024, a recap

2024-12-30T00:00:00Z

Looking back at 2024 feels like flipping through a novel filled with twists, challenges, and moments that tested my resilience. Writing this post is challenging, mainly because the personal experiences of 2024 are hard to put into words. There’s so much that’s happened that’s not as easy to explain as I'd like.

Just like last year, if I had to choose a keyword for the year 2024, it would be endurance and/or growth.

Things that were good

Brief stay in Toronto. Although things didn’t work out as planned, I had the chance to move and stay in Toronto. Despite the challenges of unemployment, the Canadian economy and moments of (depressing) loneliness, I cherished my time there.

One highlight was my family visiting me in Toronto. We had an amazing time exploring downtown Toronto, dining atop the CN Tower, and taking in the breathtaking views. Walking through the city’s parks, greenery, and trails for hours on end was a peaceful escape, and those moments will always hold a special place in my memory.

Making art. I returned to making art, but in a way I’d always dreamed of—through the use of code. Exploring code as an art medium feels incredibly fulfilling, like discovering a whole new canvas to bring ideas to life. It’s exciting to see my creativity take shape in a space I’ve long wanted to explore.

Getting off socials. This year, I’ve spent less and less time on social media (in terms of both posting and lurking), and it’s been incredibly liberating. With the extra time, I’ve been able to focus more on myself, and it’s a change I’m eager to carry into next year. While I plan to keep sharing my art on various platforms, my thoughts and reflections will find a home either here on my blog or in a personal journal.

Mentoring. This year, I signed up to become a mentor on ADPlist—it was great to connect with many like-minded folks. I’ve had the opportunity to share insights about all things related to writing and presenting case studies, interviewing, as well as help up and coming graduate designers navigate their career paths. I’d like to make more time for mentoring next year and expand my circle. We shall see.

Reading. This has been the media I’ve consumed most this year, and it’s been incredibly fulfilling. I read 30 books (with plans to finish 2 more by tomorrow), mostly in the fantasy and sci-fi genres—a habit I’m keen to carry into the next year.

Strangely, I no longer have the patience to sit through a series of late, but I’m perfectly content reading a book. There’s something about sitting down to savor a story, letting my imagination conjure up the scenes and ideas, that makes it so rewarding.

Keeping up with workouts. While I’ve slowed down my fitness routine this year, I’ve managed to stay consistent when I can. I feel a bit out of shape compared to last year, but I’m motivated to return to my 2023 fitness levels—or better—next year.

Rebuilding and growing. Although I've mostly faced losses and spent a major quarter of this year unemployed, either focusing on personal projects or freelancing, I’m glad to have found a job last month. With the economy being rough, I feel immensely fortunate to be able to move forward. The downtime gave me a tremendous push to explore other mediums intersecting art, design, and programming, turning this challenging period into a valuable learning opportunity—a win-win situation, in my opinion.

Gratitudes

The real ones. I am super grateful for those who checked in on me, especially during the times when I felt rough and lost. This year taught me a lot about who truly shows up when things get tough, both in terms of friends and family. Thank you, all. I love you.

Learnings

Storytelling. This year, much of my time was spent interviewing, which gave me plenty of opportunities to hone my storytelling skills. Presenting my design case studies to various people at different companies has made me better at highlighting the key focus areas of problems and solutions. It’s been a completely organic (if not, sometimes frustrating) learning process.

Generative art. I’ve dabbled in creative coding for a couple of years, but this year I’m especially proud of how I’ve learned by doing—bringing real art to life through code. It still feels like magic to me.

Things I look forward to

Driving. I’m ready to stop feeling like a nomad. It’s time to settle down with a mode of transport—maybe a car, maybe a motorcycle. (cough cough, a Triumph bike, maybe... cough cough)

Generative art. I'm excited to keep learning and expanding my artistic practice. One of my goals for the near future is to create a pen plotter piece using an AxiDraw machine—something I can frame and display, either in my bedroom or in my office.

Staying more in the present. I want to live in the here and now, keeping my ego in check, having a laugh, radiating warmth, staying open-minded, and not getting lost in my head. No dwelling on the past, no giving in to cynicism. Most importantly, I want to continue cultivating courage—but without being reckless.

Finding meaningful connections and building deeper, steadfast friendships. I promise—I will remain open-minded, approachable, and easy to talk to, and ready for whatever cool, unexpected people and experiences come my way.

Creative coding: designing my logo using code

2024-09-17T00:00:00Z

I've been learning to code and make generative art using Processing and GLSL (shaders) this past week. My fascination with creative coding started back in third grade, when I first learned how to make simple art in computer class using LOGO/BASIC. Now I’ve returned to it, thanks to The Coding Train on YouTube. It's really fun, and I like his teaching style.

After following a few Coding Train videos, one of my first goals was to design my logo using only the default 2D primitive shapes from the Processing reference documentation. The main objective was to understand the coordinate system, and I thought this would be a good opportunity / challenge to understand the fundamentals of creative coding.

So I spent the entire day working with Cartesian plane coordinates, going back and forth between plotting on paper and validating my work on screen. Ultimately, I was able to successfully draw my logo using just the shapes provided by Processing.

One of the first steps, after setting the window size, was using a quad() to build the diamond shape from the upper half of my logo. This was a bit tedious because I was confused by how Cartesian coordinates work in the context of the output window. By default, the origin is positioned at the top-left corner, with the X-axis running horizontally and the Y-axis vertically. Also, unlike typical Cartesian planes, there are no negative coordinates.

The real challenge came next. After spending half the day figuring out coordinates for the diamond shape, working out the 'V' shape for the second part of my logo was a bit more difficult. Fortunately, Processing provides a function called beginShape(), to build custom shapes. I approached this by first plotting out points in my notebook, then transferring the coordinates to my Processing program and using the point() function to map them out on screen. This step took a LONG time, and I made heaps of errors while calculating the points; still getting used to the cartesian plane!

After blocking out the shape, I used all the points in consecutive vertex() functions to generate the bottom half of my logo. This is how it looked as a whole—woot! I also cleaned up the code and defined center points X and Y using half of the window's width and height respectively to align both shapes and achieve a symmetric look.

    float centerX = width / 2;
    float centerY = height / 2;

    quad(centerX, centerY - 85,  // Top vertex
        centerX - 70, centerY,   // Left vertex
        centerX, centerY + 65,   // Bottom vertex
        centerX + 70, centerY);  // Right vertex

    beginShape();
    vertex(centerX - 80, centerY + 10);
    vertex(centerX - 145, centerY + 80);
    vertex(centerX, centerY + 185);
    vertex(centerX + 145, centerY + 80);
    vertex(centerX + 80, centerY + 10);
    vertex(centerX, centerY + 80);
    endShape(CLOSE);

However, I noticed the shape wasn't centered with respect to the window/canvas. To fix this, I defined an offset value and applied it to both shape functions to center the entire logo within the window.

To test for symmetry, I defined a function that draws a grid on screen.

void drawGrid() {
    noFill();
    stroke(0, 175, 0, 150); 
    
    for (int x = 0; x <= width; x += 20) {
        line(x, 0, x, height);  // Vertical lines
    }
    
    for (int y = 0; y <= height; y += 20) {
        line(0, y, width, y);   // Horizontal lines
    }
}

This was the end result! For the next steps, I want to learn how to apply rounding to all the vertices of my logo to achieve a smoother, refined look. (Bonus points if it matches with my original logo design!)

A day trip to Elora

2024-07-08T00:00:00Z

Recently, I had the pleasure of visiting Elora for a day trip with my cousin and family (including my adorable little niece!)

Elora is a charming little town and it was the perfect backdrop for a day of exploration and relaxation. The drizzling weather during our visit reminded me of Melbourne with its chill and laidback vibe. We wandered through the quaint shops and explored the city centre, and the Bissell park trail.

Morning

Arrival and exploring the town. We set off at around 10 AM in the morning, eager to make the most of our day in Elora. The drive was filled with anticipation as we passed farmlands that had cows and horses – a glimpse of Ontario's Greenbelt on the outskirts of Guelph (perhaps).

Exploring Bissell Park Trail. Upon arrival, we parked our car and immediately headed to Bissell Park. This park is located in the heart of Elora and is a relaxing green space. We enjoyed a leisurely walk along the trail by the Grand River, soaking in the peaceful ambiance. My little niece had a fun, happy time interacting with dogs (she LOVES dogs!), thanks to some friendly dog walkers we encountered along the way. The park's accessibility and charm made it a great spot for a family outing.

Midday/Afternoon

Shopping, art, and handicrafts. After walking through the Bissell Park Trail loop we returned to the town. Elora is known for its vibrant arts scene, so we made sure to visit a few local galleries. The diverse range of artworks, from contemporary pieces to traditional crafts, was truly inspiring. The welcoming atmosphere and friendly staff made this very enjoyable. We enjoyed browsing through and shopping for some souvenirs in the form of some great handmade works of art.

Sweet treats. To wrap up our day, we treated ourselves to some delicious ice cream from a local parlor. My little niece’s eyes lit up as she chose her favorite flavour, and we all enjoyed our sweet treats while relaxing by the river. It rained on and off during this part of the day which was funny to witness because everyone on the street kept opening and closing their umbrellas at different points. The peaceful ambiance and beautiful scenery provided the perfect end to our day in Elora.

Conclusion

Our day trip to Elora was a wonderful escape from the rush and push of everyday life. The combination of natural beauty and artistic charm made it an unforgettable experience. I’m already looking forward to my next visit!

A day trip to Niagara Falls

2024-04-17T00:00:00Z

2023, a recap

2023-12-27T00:00:00Z

Warm sunlight is spilling through my window, defying the season's usual cloak of grey, bathing the room in a golden glow. It is not the greatest backdrop for reflection and sifting through the memories that make up 2023 — a year that seems to have flown by rather quickly. As I bask in this warmth, there are some feelings of nostalgia and anticipation stirring within me. There was joy, happiness, sorrow, and grief in roughly equal parts, and a lot of yearning, manifesting, and hope.

If I had to choose a keyword/theme that fit the year 2023, it would be resilience.

Things that were good

Career. It was a great year in terms of the journey in my career — perhaps the best one yet. It was fantastic as I feel I've grown and have learned a lot this year, thanks to some AMAZING folks I met. It was all very fun and I am super thankful to the universe to have sent them my way. I will forever love, cherish, and be grateful to each of them. If I had to do it all again, I would not change a single thing.

At this point, I must mention the fact that I currently feel like I am collaging myself into being by (subconsciously) taking each person's bits and pieces of their personalities and incorporating it into my own; becoming more of the self that I have been finding.

My personality definitely feels like a mosaic; each person so far left a distinct impression and has added a unique tile to the grander picture. I wish I could drop their names so bad... I am learning to be confident and possibly a bit bold through the calm confidence of an amazing person who is my sun and my anchor — someone who is very close to my heart; finding joy and happiness through her smile and laughter. From her and a few others, I'm learning the art of asking the right questions, embracing humor in the everyday, paying closer attention to detail, and staying humble, patient, boundlessly generous, kind, and open-minded.

I will very much miss all of them as I part ways next year, and I genuinely hope to stay in touch with them all, if not just the one.

30. I turned 30 this year. I have accepted the fact that I'm officially in my 30s now; I love it. I feel like I'm being more patient with myself, embracing more of my personality, and am being open to things every day. I don't really feel any different — except in the physical sense — I've noticed that my lower back starts to hurt if I sit for too long in a bad posture, so I am trying to be very aware of my posture lately. I will have to make some more time for keeping fit next year.

Of late, I am letting myself feel more. I think writing and art definitely helps and am presently finding therapy in drafting this post. I have also been trying to live more in the moment this year, instead of constantly thinking about the past; my sister once said to me "you pretty much live in the past," (I wonder if it's an older sibling thing). I am extremely thankful for her, and want to borrow some of her spirit. She is like a cat; does what she wants and just enjoys existing.

I also feel like I'm unlearning a lot of my so-called "defense mechanisms"; getting over the fear of being judged, and am gradually getting closer to reflecting the true me; practicing being kind, patient, and gentle and a good support structure not just internally but also towards the people around me.

Making sure that I let people know that I love them. All the time! Also being more intentional in nurturing people and relationships. I feel like I am slowly opening up to people by sharing my experiences and ideas and it has been amazing so far. I don't really like talking much about myself (and so I naturally default to being a good listener to my friends), but opening up from time to time and feeling seen / heard is great.

I am very keen on spending time in the wilderness, out of the doors. I haven't traveled much this year — have not spent much time camping/hiking outdoors, but I do go for long walks and jogs.

Reading. During the start of the year, I made a resolution to read 12 books (one book per month) this year, and have met / surpassed that goal! I will continue with this practice for the next year as well. I am keen on reading more fantasy as I find the worldbuilding and the lore helps with creative thinking, but am also quite interested in some non-fiction (Biographies, for example). OH AND POETRY.

Staying in shape. I have been consistently going on long walks and jogs for the past year or two. According to my Apple Watch, I've been doing it daily for the past 697 days, and the next year I may expand to doing some strength training and not just cardio. That remains to be seen.

The sad

Loss. I lost my grandmother early in the year. I have allowed myself to grieve and mourn her loss but am still filled with grief and sorrow from time to time. I still feel her absence and it is particularly painful to me since I spent a lot of time with her as a child. I believe she is in a better place now and I love her. She taught me to be gentle and kind, to live humbly without thinking too much of yourself/having too much of an ego, and to be resilient and caring.

Gratitude / Thankful for

New Friends. I made some great new friends at work this year. Many good vibes, laughs, and fun! Folks that are inclusive, empathetic, tactful, and respectful of my boundaries.

Being able to relocate. Yes! The invitation was totally unexpected. To new beginnings. 🥂

Character development. Grateful each year to have the sense/self-awareness to know and identify my weaknesses, be able to work on them and grow. The plot has to keep moving forward. ↗

Growth as a creative. Although I haven't worked on many projects personally this year, I have learned a LOT from friends at work this year, and I am extremely grateful to each person for that. They have opened my eyes in many ways and I am glad to have gotten that experience from them. I look forward to passing on what I've learned to others.

Things I look forward to

Nurturing myself and my relationships. I want to identify and work through any undesirable traits and be the best possible version of myself and at the same time continue opening up to people. Lift people up. Give credit where it's due. Let folks know I love them. Life is short but love springs eternally.

Getting a job. I strongly believe I will get a job after moving at some point, but the uncertainty has me a bit stressed out at the moment.

Journaling more. I want to write more about creativity, being out in the nature, and personal stuff. It helps with being mindful, staying in the moment, and processing emotions in a healthy way.

Keeping fit. Continue with cardio, get into strength training.

Personal projects. I haven't created much this year owing to me feeling burned out at different points throughout the year, along with a general lack of time and motivation.

I decree today, that in 2024, I plan to create more things for myself and my friends.

2022 was a great year for productivity as I worked on a lot of personal projects. I plan to take some inspiration from my past work and hope to continue my creative practice starting next year.

Learning. I like learning new things every year; at least one new thing. In 2021 and '22 it was 3D art. We'll see what I lean into next year. I am open and looking. Probably photography. I don't know.

Photography. I remember this year I was quite keen about getting into photography and wanting to get a camera for myself as a birthday present but I didn't go through with it as I found that the gear can get quite expensive. I can get stuff secondhand as I'm starting out... Well, as long as it's on my mind, I am sure I will get to it at some point.

Watching new movies. I have mostly only rewatched movies this year, and want to make time to watching New movies. New experiences; new ways to make you think and feel.

Media recs (from what I consumed this year)

Books. The Lord of the Rings (1968), by J. R. R. Tolkien. No question about it. Best book ever written.

Also Dune (1965) and Dune Messiah (1969), by Frank Herbert.

And The Mistborn Trilogy: Era One (2006—08), by Brandon Sanderson. I read all three books in a row without ever feeling tired/exhausted. Excellently written.

Music. Most likely Desire, I Want To Turn Into You (2023), by Caroline Polachek, seeing how it's my most played album of the year.

I also listened to a lot of Feels (2005), by Animal Collective, and Schlagenheim (2019), by black midi. I listened to a LOT of Animal Collective and black midi in the mid point of this year.

Another noteworthy recommendation is The Land Is Inhospitable and So Are We (2023), by Mitski.

A lot of LCD Soundsystem songs have been in rotation earlier in the year. OH and Fred Again.., Agnes Obel, and James Blake. Honestly, I can go on and may have to make a separate entry for music at this point HAHA.

Movies. I really liked Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse (2023). The art style and visuals are amazing and the movie did not disappoint. I await its sequel!

(I honestly think that is the only movie I saw that was released this year. Tragic.)

I also watched The Dollars Trilogy because I always wanted to, and really liked For a Few Dollars More (1965) the most, out of the three. (Fun fact: Clint Eastwood and I share the same birthday.)

I rewatched Chungking Express (1994) yesterday, and it is an all-time fave.

Games. Bloodborne (2015), and Ghost of Tsushima (2020).

Both games have SUCH splendid art direction. I love the Gothic/Victorian-era architecture and Lovecraftian aesthetic that Bloodborne has, and the Kurosawa inspired Japanese style from GoT. Definitely feel inspired and want to use them in one of my artworks/projects.

Podcast/radio. The only podcast I listen to is Conan O'Brien Needs A Friend, except I haven't listened to it at all this year. I watched a few clips on YouTube though, and really liked the ones in which Jordan Schlansky is present.

My all-time favorite episodes are Timothy Olyphant (Feb 2019), and Jesse Eisenberg (Jan 2020), for the very funny banter.

TV. Haven't watched much TV this year so no recommendations sadly. :(

Updated on Saturday, December 30, 2023.

Build tables, not fences

2023-11-24T00:00:00Z

As I lay in bed, stirred by the gentle chirping of birds in the early morning hours, sleep slipping away like elusive dreams, I found comfort in the glow of my phone screen. On Instagram, I saw that my friend Simon had shared a post in his Stories, adding an unexpected touch of profound reflection in the quiet hours.

The post (in Dutch) reads:

"Als je het beter hebt dan anderen, bouw je een langere tafel, geen hoger hek."
— via @hesketencate

which in English translates to: "If you have it better than others, build a longer table, not a higher fence."

Putting that into perspective into my creative practice so far, I find among some of my creative peers, an intense desire and a rush and a push to become Someone Great resulting in them going through an unrelenting pursuit of aiming for accolades and recognition, or for organisation titles and awards¹, to the point where work sometimes inadvertently gets siloed; which naturally happens when folks are independently focusing on different aspects of the project based on their interests, akin to being separated by fences.

I agree with the statement above and fully believe that there must be room at the table for everyone, and while there may be self-motivated pursuits, it is crucial that everyone's efforts align with the collective goal and outcomes. Personally, I find solace in the embrace of genuine, wholehearted moments of collaboration, knowing they not only foster a positive atmosphere but also lead to more impact and success. I have relished in, and now cherish, such memories of working with some colleagues who have since become my friends very dearly.

What follows are some words of gratitude and thankfulness for those special folks I've had the privilege of meeting thus far.

I would like to express gratitude for friends and colleagues who have generously extended their support — people who have not only inspired me but also elevated me — my mentors, collaborators, and kindred spirits. They are like the reliable morning sun and the refreshing crisp breeze, providing a steadfast foundation and invigorating energy².

I am thankful to those who have shared ideas and camaraderie, and for teaching me the importance of cultivating an environment that not only ensures people feel safe but also nurtures cooperation. So far in my creative journey, I have come to realise that success isn't solely defined by the rat race's yardstick. What truly matters to me is the impact I have on my fellow creatives — the doors I open, the pathways I illuminate, the friendships I make — much in the same way that my peers have done for me.

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1. This is not a dig at anybody. I wish to emphatically emphasize that aspiring for greatness is entirely valid and getting recognised is great. I celebrate all my friends' and colleagues' wins ardently (and am a fan of them and the work they produce), and they do the same for me, recognising the mutual desire for validation in our work.

In this context, I focus mainly on the potential impact on collaborative aspects of work when creatives lose sight of the big picture.

2. (After writing this, I couldn't help but imagine Jordan Schlansky from Conan delivering these words — tres poetic, don't you think?!)

a prayer

2023-11-20T00:00:00Z

let me stay gentle and tender-hearted despite my hardships and failings,
let me always be unapologetically true to myself with no fear of prejudice and judgment,
let me have the strength and courage to actively quell my insecurities and anxiety

Week 7, 2026: Raiding tombs (and tissues)

2026-02-15T00:00:00Z

This week was aggressively uneventful. Work happened. Rectangles were drawn. Updates were sent. Meetings were ...met.

I’ve been feeling a bit sick today, hoping it does not turn into a full-blown cold tomorrow. 🤧

Apart from that, I’ve been raidin’ tombs (read: continuing my Tomb Raider playthrough) for most of the weekend. Something I might continue tomorrow; it’s the long weekend, after all.

Side-note: I feel like February might end already? Which feels unfair. It is easily the chillest of all the months and deserves AT LEAST 34 days.

Week 6, 2026: Mini parties

2026-02-08T00:00:00Z

This week, I went to an unplanned movie night at one of my colleague’s place. It was good fun. We had mini samosas, popcorn, and pizza. We are very keen to do it again — probably going to be renting a mini movie theater too, while we’re at it.

This weekend was my sister’s birthday. I drove down to their place and spent some time with them. It was cool — a small party, cake-cutting duties, and some genuinely good food. She has now officially entered her 30s as well.

My black Converse Chuck 70s also arrived this week. I definitely prefer these to my white ones, I don’t know. I would have gotten the high-top version, but my size was, sadly, out of stock.

Other than the above, it was a chill weekend. I mostly lay on my bed watching random videos and drifting in and out of sleep. Oh, I also finished my Harry Potter movie marathon this week. I also started playing Tomb Raider (2013), which I think I played for like 20 minutes.

Week 5, 2026: (Sick emoji)

2026-02-01T00:00:00Z

I returned on Monday evening from Mumbai, and the very next day had gone to a work outing.

The rest of the week was spent busy at work.

I fell ill over the weekend, so I’ve been taking a lot of rest / naps, and have begun rewatching the Harry Potter movies (on the third one right now). I last saw them in my teens, so it’s fun to watch them again.

I also bought ticket to see Tame Impala on a whim (I say that after I bought it after doing some much thinking and deliberation). Part of the novelty is because they’re playing in Amsterdam and I love The Netherlands (never been, but I always wanted to go and now is as good a reason as any.), and it’s also part of my vow to travel more this year. They’re playing on May 4, and I have yet to plan my travel and holiday dates. (Of note, I’ll be visiting Goa in the last week of this month, so looks like my travel vow is already coming along nicely.)

Week 3, 2026: New phone

2026-01-18T00:00:00Z

This week was uneventful and mostly work-oriented.

My new phone arrived this week — the iPhone 17 Pro in “cosmic orange”. It’s my first pro phone, and deciding to take the plunge felt like a small but intentional upgrade. My old iPhone 12 had been overheating and was clearly trying to retire after a respectable five year run! (Liquid Glass remains the prime suspect.) I’ve yet to test the much-hyped pro camera features on my new phone, and that’s something I’m keen on.

I’ve been looking at buying an M65 jacket and a pair of black Converse high-tops, which I might end up doing later today. No special reason, just a random buy.

The weekend was slow and spent resting. I played Bloodborne (third playthrough), took some mini-naps, and watched a movie called The Last Castle on Netflix yesterday, which I liked.

I’ll be in Mumbai next weekend for Lollapalooza 2026 with my sister and brother-in-law, and am looking forward to that! This will be my first concert in a LONG time. I’m keen on Linkin Park (admittedly, I’ve not heard their new stuff, as I am always reminded of Chester whenever I listen). I’m not familiar with much of the rest of the lineup (except some Bloodywood songs), but am open to being surprised.

Week 2, 2026: Unplanned invites

2026-01-11T00:00:00Z

This week involved me easing out of vacation mode and back into work-per-usual. There was no dramatic re-entry, just the familiar resumption of calendars, messages, and routines settling back into place.

It did feel good, in an understated way — getting back on track, seeing my colleagues again, and noticing how easily the pace returned after the lull.

Friday ended with an outing. I had ramen with office colleagues at Chubby Cho. It was unplanned; a last-minute invite. I realised I hadn’t been there in forever. The place was mostly empty. I ordered a very spicy bowl, which the wait staff strongly recommended. It WAS restorative, just not in the way they advertised HAHA.

The weekend was split nicely. I spent most of it with my sister as she had come visiting! I was SO happy to see her after so long. It was super fun!

Saturday evening was spent at another colleague’s house. This, too, was unplanned. It was unstructured and fun. A reminder (for me) that social energy doesn’t always need planning to work.

Today was mostly for rest. I hung out with my sister, played some Bloodborne (defeating Orphan of Kos for the third time), and spent a questionable amount of time watching random reels on Instagram — which I probably should be cutting down seeing how easily I might get hooked.

Week 1, 2026: New year, same notes

2026-01-04T00:00:00Z

(I’ve opened these notes with “G’day folks” for a long time now. Time for something a little looser this year. This means no openers and/or closers any more.)

This was an uneventful week. It was quiet.

I didn’t do much. I played my guitar, some Bloodborne, did some workouts here and there, went on a few drives, and took li’l naps in between. A welcome break indeed.

In terms of what I did get around to doing: I added a dark theme here on one of those days this week where I was super bored. It currently respects device theme settings, though I want to add a manual toggle somewhere. I also made some tiny updates to the footer content. I experimented with different fonts and layouts, but am a bit hesitant to push those changes as I don’t want to break something. Baby steps.

I also explored some ideas for a personal photo site. I’ve had that thought floating around for a while, and I got very close to buying a new domain. It would be a place for travel photos I’ve taken over the years. I’m no photographer, but I like the idea. Possibly an excuse to travel more this year. I’ll see.

Some other ideas cooking up in my head: buying a basketball, and a skateboard (uhh. . . blaming Instagram reels for this).

I watched two movies on Netflix today: The Negotiator and The Quick and the Dead. Both were pretty intense and I liked them.

I’m looking forward to what this year brings.

Week 52, 2025: On that note

2025-12-28T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

This week was a bit chill. It gave end-of-year vibes, indeed.

A colleague of mine hosted a little house party and we all chilled at his place for a bit. We had good food, a little karaoke session (that’s three karaoke sessions this month alone, man am I on a roll.), and played some games. It was mighty fun!

This weekend, I continued chilling at home. Taking it slow, very deliberately so. It consisted of a lot of little naps, some gaming on the side (Gran Turismo for days), and watching a Telugu / Tamil / Malayalam movie (or two). It’s been a while.

On that note, I’ve been listening to a lot of songs from my motherland this week (could I be MORE dramatic?! "motherland" HAHA.) Maybe a quiet rediscovery of my roots? The little karaoke session was a contributing factor, for sure. I’ve definitely been away for a while, and it’s made me notice how perspective shifts from time to time. That’s about it.

On THAT note, I’m getting a tad reflective as I look back at the year — going to blame the song I’m listening to (music does that sometimes). What a year it has been. Might be time for a separate recap post. (NEXT WEEK.)

The Sunday has not ended yet — might go on a long drive later. Last weeknote of 2025.

Until next time.

Week 51, 2025: Small updates

2025-12-21T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

Nothing major to report from this week.

This weekend, I picked up my PS5 controller and went back to playing Bloodborne (my fave game). I also bought Gran Turismo 7, and have been playing it a LOT.

I also watched Dhurandhar with my sister and brother-in-law. I liked it — the performances all around were fantastic, but it was super long (I had no idea of its runtime before going in). It was my first Ranveer movie, too!

We also had another mini karaoke session at their place and it was a VIBE.

I also rewatched F1 (The Movie) today. Still my movie of the year.

Until next time.

Week 50, 2025: #frAnks

2025-12-14T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

This week felt big, in ways I’m still unpacking. The headline event was my sister’s wedding, which meant equal parts joy and chaos. It still hasn’t sunk in quite yet.

It kicked off with the haldi ceremony, with people enthusiastically applying haldi with a level of confidence that suggested there would be no survivors. The wedding itself was beautiful. One of those days where everything came together; the setting, the people, and the emotions. Watching my little sister get married was surreal (still is), slightly bittersweet, and deeply wholesome. I am happy for her! The celebrations wrapped up with a reception at a resort. Great band, genuinely amazing food, and a good atmosphere all around!

Just when I thought it was all winding down, there was an after party yesterday. Which was… not winding down at all. There was a lot of dancing, followed by AMAZING late-night group karaoke. We went pretty hard. We all sang like nobody was listening and I danced like my knees were invincible, and am now operating with lungs and joints that feel deeply betrayed. No regrets though — it was SUPER fun and I NEEDED this.

The days around all this were a blur of running around, last-minute fixes, and managing the general chaos. Now there’s a gentle comedown… the house feels quieter and the adrenaline has worn off. I am a tad exhausted as I type this, but in a good, content kind of way.

All in all, it felt like a full week. Big moments, small pauses, and a realisation that family milestones always hit a little deeper than you expect.

Until next time!

Week 49, 2025: Fast days

2025-12-07T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

Oh look, December’s here!

This week. Man. Calling this week brutal would be an understatement. It was fast-paced / hectic, and I also dealt with a migraine that lasted multiple days. I went pretty hard. Not good, Anith.

The weekend was also its own kind of hectic. It was filled with shopping, an activity that I don’t enjoy. I mean I’ve put this off for so long — I am a major slacker when it comes to this activity, similar to Jeff Lebowski from the movie The Big Lebowski. The dude abides.

I managed to get through it all (at Inorbit Mall) and am pretty happy with what I purchased. For starters, I got myself a three piece suit, which I have to get altered to fit my body (not a surprise! Also last-minute alterations, yay! I wonder why I am so chill about all this.) I got myself a traditional Kurta set too, which again did not fit me, but I decided to roll with it.

The suit is all black and I wanted a black tie too (it did not help that I had my Wayfarers on the entire time), to which my sister stopped me short, and to my objections she said, "You’re not in Men in Black," in her typical no BS manner which made me chuckle. I couldn’t find suitable (glossy) dress shoes that fit me either. Well, one of them did, but my toes were CRAMPED. So I copped an all-black Nike Air Force 1s (about time!) to go with my suit. I will definitely stand out with my three piece all-black suit and Nike AF1s. (I am smiling like an idiot as I type this.) I also got myself a pair of Birks.

I’m satisfied with what I bought. No regrets.

In other news, this was also the Spotify Wrapped week, and for the first time, I wasn’t enthused about it. (Sign of a major character development right here. I think I don’t much care about my listening data anymore.)

This year, Metal topped my charts, which is interesting. Incidentally, I’ve been listening to a lot of metal this week.

Also, below are my top songs / artists. Kendrick Lamar topping my charts for the 5th time in a row?!

Something else from Wrapped that I found amusing, and a tad bit true, from the image below. I definitely used to make playlists for close friends in the past. So being a "Curator" suits me well.

I also finished reading Shoe Dog this week. I am now short of 3 books from my original 10 books goal for the year, and I feel like I still have time? Well. Let’s see how this goes!

Until next time.

Week 48, 2025: Slow days

2025-11-30T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

This week was on the quieter side as it was mostly work focused. It was good overall.

The weekend was taken deliberately slow — the kind of slow where I played my guitar but did not record anything. The world may have to wait another week for my unplugged sessions.

Today involved meeting my uncle and aunt, along with some more shopping for my sister’s wedding. It’s fast approaching, and apparently so is the realisation that I am very, very unprepared.

I also picked up Shoe Dog, by Phil Knight today. I’ve already read 3 chapters — pretty inspiring!

Until next time.

Week 47, 2025: Come as it went

2025-11-23T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

It’s been a busy one, so not much excitement to report, but still a few little things worth jotting down.

I missed all my workouts this week (a first!), but I’m planning to pick things back up from tomorrow.

I’ve also been thinking about getting back into making generative art. Making no promises here though. ✌️ I’m juggling with 50 other things lately, from trying to stay fit to managing the general chaos of life, so it’s no surprise I end up mentally and physically drained most days. Still, the urge to create is there.

I am already having thoughts of writing a recap post for this year — but not quite yet. I have a feeling it’ll revolve around two keywords: resilience (again!) and patience; two themes that have quietly defined most of this year for me. More soon.

I also dipped into my old Arena channels this week after ages, and rediscovered one called “Personal Scrapbook.” It’s filled with genuinely warm, positive comments and little texts from past friends. I’m not usually sentimental, but these hit me. I’d forgotten about many of those interactions, and I miss them. Wherever they are now, I hope life’s treating them well. Link to Personal Scrapbook.

^ I miss that whole lockdown-era Design Twitter. 'Twas fun. I’m glad I archived these little moments, and I think I want to start doing it again. We shall see.

On the lighter side, I’ve definitely been playing a bit of guitar. I think I butchered both songs below, but hey, still learning, still having fun! (still D.R.E. — sorry, had to. :P)

1979, by The Smashing Pumpkins

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Come As You Are, by Nirvana

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I started watching The Rookie today, out of sheer curiosity. I hadn’t opened my Netflix in SO long. I’ve been either playing my guitar or doing crosswords as it plays in the background. (Not sure why I decided on mentioning that mundane fact here.)

Until next time.

Week 46, 2025: Riffs and rides

2025-11-16T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

This week went by really fine. The vibes were just right.

I dusted off my old guitar (I bought an acoustic early this year), and have been playing and jamming through some 90s alt rock songs. Those songs will always hold a special place in my heart, especially as I learned (self-taught) guitar on a couple of Nirvana tracks, as a teenager.

I spent most of today outdoors. My sister is getting married next month, and I was helping with the preparations. I ended up driving my family around, and we also went to scope out the venue. It definitely feels a tad bittersweet already, 'cos she will always be my baby sister.

We also spent time at her fiancé’s place (and their side of the family; which is close by my office, so now I have a place that I can probably hang out at and have fun).

My workouts have, once again, been super consistent this week. I don’t have anything else to add, except that it feels really good to take care of yourself and your body. I bought a couple of flannel shirts (after a loooong time), too! Looking forward to those arriving.

Today, I finished reading Dark Matter — a book I started back in June of this year. Man, I’ve not been keeping up with my reading this year at all. I mean there's still 6 weeks left this year and I’ve read 6 books so far. Aiming to read another 4... Let’s go?

I found a really old recording (from Dec 2016) on my phone, of a guitar riff I recorded from a song that I’ve decided to share here. I might make this a regular series, even. If anything, it might motivate me to continue playing my old gee-tar.

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BTW, the short acoustic riff above is from a song called Alison, by Slowdive.

Until next time.

Week 45, 2025: Uneventful, yet hectic

2025-11-09T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

This week was, once again, mostly uneventful. It was also, once again, super hectic. (Three weeks in a row, yo.)

The weekend was spent in recovery mode. I took some long drives; both car and motorcycle.

(I might really need to go on an actual break soon. It’s been a while... Going to start prepping for it? Third time’s the charm?)

My workouts have been going good and consistent for the most part. Week 4 (or 5???). I’ve now begun using 10kg dumbbells and my GOD they are heavy. I’ve gotten some great tone and definition all around my body, so at least the suffering is symmetrical. (I have no idea what the last sentence means. It sounded poetic enough in my mind.)

Until next time.

Week 44, 2025: A quiet, busy week

2025-11-02T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

I had a busy week. Work kept me super occupied for the most part. It was pretty uneventful otherwise. I missed three workout days this week and it felt kinda bad, but life happens y'know? It is what it is.

This weekend was also pretty slow and chill. I watched a couple of Marvel movies — most notably, Thunderbolts* today. I found it to be pretty good, given that I was pretty much burned out on comic book movies. (Just because I couldn’t keep up with the release cycle anymore; too much work and commitment required on my part.)

I also finished Silent Hill 2 last weekend and started a fresh playthrough of Resident Evil 2 (The OG / 1998 version). Nothing but horror games of late, man. Love me some good horror games.

Until next time.

Week 43, 2025: A steady week

2025-10-26T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

This week’s note will once again be short since nothing particularly eventful happened.

I’ve been keeping up with my workout routine, and leg days are starting to feel a tad easier now. On Tuesday, I managed three full sets of reverse lunges (just bodyweight), and I felt good and proud of myself for going through it with sheer ✨ willpower and determination ✨.

(It hurt a lot the next day. Totally worth it, though.)

I’ve also been noticing some changes in my core; definitely feels tighter compared to before. (I remember checking for abs after waking up the other day HAHA.) I also think it might now be time to up my weights and set count, now that I’m properly easing into my routine.

I started playing Silent Hill 2 this week (or it was last week; honestly can’t remember.) It’s great at keeping me on my toes as I find the experience to be scary. I also re-watched all three Iron Man movies over the weekend.

Until next time.

Week 42, 2025: Growing gains (and pains)

2025-10-19T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

Nothing much exciting to report on from this week, so this post will be rather short and focused a tad on fitness.

I’ve been keeping up with my workout routine and goals (although I missed Wednesday cos I was too exhausted). However I did double time on Thursday so I’m all square! I also introduced a 6kg kettlebell into my routine so it's all working out really perfectly.

I am still struggling a bit with leg day. Reverse lunges huuuuurt like hell, and I’m not even using weights right now! I am only managing one set for now, but I plan to work through it and conquer it eventually.

Also, this week I broke several workout records of my own, according to my Apple Watch. Not that it means anything in the grand scheme of things, but it’s nice to have that timely (no pun intended) bit of motivation every now and then I suppose.

I’ll list my achievements for the week here, though I want to be mindful that this isn’t about bragging. I’m not doing this for the achievements anyway. Just listing them down here for this one instance (probably) because I’m bored and really feel like writing. (Said no one ever.)

Move Goal 200% (x2)
Exercise Record — 106 mins spent (16 Oct)
High Intensity Interval Training Record — 3,526 kJ (~842 cal) burned (17 Oct)
Functional Strength Training Record — 2,068 kJ (~494 cal) burned (18 Oct)

Again, it looks like I burned most calories on Friday (~842 cal). The high intensity workouts are no joke.

It feels really good too.

If anyone’s reading this, I hope this motivates you. Keep on keepin’ on.

Until next time.

Week 41, 2025: Slow, sore, satisfying

2025-10-12T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

I resumed, or rather, restarted after a really long time, my strength training workout this week. I hadn't done it in a while too so my body was generally sore throughout the week.

My main goal this week was to get back into the swing of things (no pun intended), and start building a good discipline. I am also doing this at home using my trusty dumbbells (different weights). Definitely planning to also hit the gym at some point after.

One thing’s for sure: it always felt damn good after each workout — I really missed that feeling. That alone makes me want to keep going every day.

Here’s a broad breakdown of my workout plan.

Mondays: Upper body (Push — Chest, shoulders, and triceps)
Tuesdays: Lower body (Legs, glutes, and hamstrings)
Wednesdays: Core and mobility (Abs, obliques, lower back)
Thursdays: Upper body (Pull — Back, biceps, and traps)
Fridays: Full-body circuit (Conditioning; HIIT — CrossFit-ish)
Sat/Sun: Rest or cardio (if I am feeling up to it)

Yes, I used ChatGPT to help me develop this plan. Shhh.

Most of my workout exercises focus on doing 3-4 sets of 10-12 reps each. I’m already beginning to see a bit of form and definition — especially in my biceps, traps, and back, which feels motivating. My posture has also noticeably improved, something I caught myself realising during my airport visit this weekend.

Tuesday was brutal, though. Leg day. I hated it (hyperbolically speaking). Squats and lunges with weights. I collapsed right after from the pain and exhaustion and thought my body was broken (oh, the things I put myself through.) Friday made up for it as my Apple Watch says it was my highest calorie burn yet (~657 cal).

Definitely been pushing myself hard in terms of my efforts — full steam ahead. All in all, a good first week back. Slow, sore, and satisfying.

This weekend, my family and I visited Goa — a quick, one-day trip. We stopped by a temple, had Konkan lunch at a restaurant in Panjim, and ended the day at the beach.

I missed doing this for two (three?) weeks now, but I also haven’t been listening to much music lately, but if one were to ask me what my most-played track this week was, it’s probably Phantom Lord, by Metallica. The guitar riff. Oof.

Until next time.

Week 40, 2025: Road tripping

2025-10-05T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

This long weekend, I went on a road trip with my family to Warangal. I did most of the driving, of course, and the whole thing began from a casual conversation at work. (It is a running joke at this point!) The original plan was Hampi, but my dad decided to join at the last moment, and since he’s not comfortable with long drives, we settled on somewhere closer. None of us had ever been, so it seemed like a good compromise.

It was a short 3-3.5 hour drive out of Hyderabad. The drive was smoother than expected; the highways were open and there wasn’t much traffic either. (Quite understandable, given Friday was a public holiday.)

Warangal, when we finally arrived, was... quietly confident about its own pace. The Fort was magnificent in its weathered, crumbling way. Some of the gate-like structures stood there like time portals. I don’t quite know how to put it into words, but the vibe was undeniably “heritage-y.” (If that’s even a word.)

It also was a pilgrimage of sorts. My mom wanted to visit a few local temples, and so we did. One of them, dedicated to Kāli Ma (Bhadrakāli), was fully packed when we visited; the kind of crowd where you don’t walk so much as get moved by collective momentum.

Alongside that, we also visited the Thousand Pillar Temple. The temple itself was beautiful; a precise kind of symmetry carved centuries ago, somehow still holding its own. I took some photos of the architecture, and of the intricate details within the masonry. The stonework here (and at the Fort) was stunning.

We also stopped by Lakhnavaram Lake, which offered a welcome break from stone and crowds. The water stretched out calmly, reflecting the sky in a way that made you forget for a moment that you’d been navigating heat, traffic, and the centuries-old architecture.

Warangal wasn’t Hampi, but it had its own pace, its own stories, and plenty of sun-soaked stone to admire. We’ve started planning the Hampi trip for next month, so maybe I’ll finally get the boulders and even more ancient architecture.

And before that, next weekend holds another adventure: Goa. Somehow, these trips just keep stacking up. (Not complaining!)

Until next time!

Week 39, 2025: A slow week (and broken streaks)

2025-09-28T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

First things first: remember how I said in my last weeknote that I wish I had someone to bar/café crawl with? WEELLLLL, I ain’t doin’ that no mo’. This week my body said nope, and knocked me flat.

Not to be too dramatic, but I had an office outing on Monday evening, and I had to walk in the rain to catch a cab home late at night, after which I just crashed hard. I actually started feeling sick late in the evening on Tuesday, until I surely fell ill on Wednesday. Definitely exhaustion.

Somewhere in there I also bought an Apple Watch on Wednesday, mostly for a bit of extra fitness motivation. Let’s go, lazybones. I actually had a 3+ year continuous fitness streak (from Feb 2022), until I broke it in January this year.

Speaking of streaks — same with Duolingo. I think I had a 5+ year streak, until I missed doing a few days in a row this year. So now the app just sits there collecting dust. So long, my sweet progress in Swedish and Dutch.

(Man, this year seems to be the year of me breaking streaks huh. 🙃)

Nothing else of note really happened this week, so this note’s going to be short and sweet. Funny how sometimes slowing down isn’t a choice, but it does the job anyway. I mean, I like takin’ it nice and slow too. So there.

Until next time!

Week 38, 2025: Restaurant hopping

2025-09-21T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

This week was HEAVY on work. This is by no means an understatement. It was filled with multiple long days and was generally hectic. One day at a time, as the old saying goes.

It also rained most evenings during the week, and Wednesday evening stands out strongly to me in terms of my memories. By the time I left the office, it was completely empty — I was the only one still working. Stepping out into the rain, I felt a strange, quiet energy that stuck with me.

The bus ride home continued that solitude. The bus was almost empty, and I sat at the front. Rain poured down the windows, rap music filled my ears, and the AC was blasting so hard in the bus I thought I might fall sick. Somehow, that quiet, rainy ride has stayed with me.

I’ve been wanting to write a new blog post this week and have been wringing my brain for fresh ideas or inspiration. Nothing’s really clicked yet, though. Still waiting.

And now, onto the fun stuff, cowboy. 👉🤠👉

This weekend was honestly a RIDE — a whirlwind tour of multiple restaurants with a friend who was here on a work trip from BLR. We did it on separate days, of course. As much as I’d love to bar/café hop all in one night, I am not 24 anymore — but man, I really want someone to attempt it with me, just like Simon Pegg’s character in The World’s End would. I like to think I’ve got it in me, but deep down, I know I don’t. (I’m shaking my head as I type this.) Still, I have enough courage and am probably gutsy (read: stupid) — to try and see for myself.

On Friday, we visited Olive Bistro — I last visited this place back in 2019, and it is good to know that it hasn’t changed one bit. “Kone Kopcha wala” restaurant, as my friend so eloquently and cheekily put it. We sat outdoors and had some good food and beer.

Quick side-note: I somehow managed to annoy my sister by repeatedly calling the place Olive Garden instead of Olive Bistro (not on purpose), until she snapped at me (she has a low tolerance for BS). Pretty funny. I don’t know why I do that — I am not American nor have I ever been to America, so I don’t know where it comes from. Too much exposure to American media and TV, I suppose.

On Saturday, we went to a new restaurant in Knowledge City called Akina, which is an Asian restaurant, and the food and the vibes were great here. The beer — I tried Hoegaarden for the first time — I really, really liked. Very smooth. We also ordered a Matcha Tres Leches because I have a soft spot for Matcha, however I didn’t find it to be particularly good, so it is not to be recommended.

The late night car drive home was also AMAZING. I think I was up and about until 1 AM? Really chill vibes. Might do it again. But it was also a tad exhausting waking up the next day (today).

Today, in the morning, we had a good brunch at True Black, once again in Knowledge City. I had some Veg Sandwiches and Matcha Creme cold brew. (Matcha again!!!)

Genuinely though, to recap, this week was mostly tiresome as a whole, and I also should catch up on some sleep probably. But I know for sure I won’t because I know I will be chilling and playing Skyrim today.

I started a new, fresh playthrough of Skyrim this week because I wanted some much-needed peace and calm, and I think it was a good way to take my mind off the hectic and stressful parts of the week.

Speaking of Skyrim, this week, I listened to a LOT of songs from the Skyrim soundtrack, by Jeremy Soule. I think my most-played tracks this week were From Past to Present, Far Horizons, and Secunda. Mostly played when I felt like I needed some soothing. Soooo calming, dude.

In any case, I might rest up for the rest of today because a LOT happened this week. I am also grateful for the experiences I’ve had this weekend, too. I haven't seen this much action in a while (literally). Feels good.

Until next time! (Closing note: Man, I’ve had a lot of outings so far this month, huh?)

Week 37, 2025: Outings for days

2025-09-14T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week was heavy on work outings — more than the usual. (The usual being zero.)

On Monday, I went with a group of my colleagues to a local brewery (Zero40), where we had some beers and chatted for close to 3 hours.

Next, on Wednesday, I was part of another outing, but this time with the larger team. However, we didn’t stick around long and bailed after an hour. Fun, but quick.

This week had long days both in terms of work and work outings. I think next week might be the same — seeing how I have another work outing, but with a different team tomorrow.

Between that and long workdays, I ended up crashing hard this weekend. Lots of mini naps. (Chalking it up to beauty sleep. Hehe.)

ANYWAY.

On the creative side, I dipped back into making simple generative artwork today — it felt therapeutic for sure. Below are some select outputs.

First up: a piece I call Arc & Grid. I used the Golden Ratio to create a grid and randomly filled the corners with arcs of varying stroke widths.

Kinda’ Bauhaus-y, if I do say so myself.

Second, I also worked a bit on generating landscapes, but constrained myself to using ONLY primitive geometric shapes. I broke my own constraints, though. :P

I didn’t get far with this one, as you’ll notice a few glitches above; still very much work in progress. I had trouble focusing — a lot of screen time lately.

The most-played song of this week is a tie between Avril 14th, by Aphex Twin, and Alive, by Pearl Jam (the live / MTV unplugged version). Both calming in their own way. A counter to the week’s chaos.

Until next time.

Week 36, 2025: Golden years, lazy days

2025-09-07T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

My dad had his birthday this week! We kept it small and quiet at home, but it was lovely — just family, some cake, and laughter. It was really nice to spend the evening with him (and my family), slow down, and celebrate together.

Outside of home, I had a couple of work outings this week, which were a lot of fun and a good break from the usual routine!

And then the weekend rolled around… which I mostly spent indoors watching videos on YouTube again, since the roads in my area were blocked for the Ganesh immersion. I also watched Enter the Dragon with my dad today. Classic!

On the brighter side, I picked up my guitar! It’s been a while, but it still feels familiar. I wanted to make some time for art too, but I was exhausted. Procrastination for the win.

Oh, and remember my plans to hit the gym? That didn’t happen. No reason in particular. And the travel plans haven’t materialised either. They’re still drifting somewhere in the back of my head. One of these days, I’ll get around to it.

Slightly meta: my blog has gotten dreadfully slow of late whenever I try to publish a post or make an update. I spent most of this evening uninstalling and reinstalling EVERYTHING. It works OK and is more or less quick now, but I will need to set aside some time for upkeep as it scales. (Picture me sighing dramatically in this space.)

The most-played song of the week was Golden Years, by David Bowie. Seemed appropriate for a week that was more about slowing down than speeding up.

Not a bad pace, all things considered.

Until next time!

Week 35, 2025: Backstreet’s back?

2025-08-31T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

(Random title. I am so exhausted I can’t think of a good title.)

(Yuuup, I know I missed the last two weeks’ week notes. And to think I had a good streak going... truth is, I’ve been so busy staring at screens that I didn’t feel like spending even more time at the computer on weekends, ya know?! Even writing this right now makes my eyes watery, and I’ve had to reduce brightness and turn on dark mode. Probably should wear my sunnies indoors, too.)

Work’s kept me busy the last three weeks, mostly keeping my head down. But I’ve got to remember to have fun sometimes — I feel that’s been lacking. Just gotta pace myself better, I suppose.

It has also been raining on and off a bit this week, and we had Ganesh Chaturthi, which meant good time with family. It’s a big deal on my mother’s side; I used to spend time at my grandma’s place and have fun with my cousins when we were all kids. I do miss those days sometimes, since everyone is now spread apart across different time zones.

I also got myself a jigsaw puzzle last Sunday. I spent most of the day trying to solve it. Progress is questionable. Morale also questionable. It’s no fun when you’re doing it by yourself.

I’ve been thinking of making travel plans as it’s been a WHILE since I’ve gone anywhere new — I’ll keep this space posted on that.

OH, speaking of travel plans, my sister booked me a ticket for Lollapalooza next year (in Mumbai) on Friday, and Linkin Park is going to play??? I haven’t been keeping track of their new line-up, but am looking forward to it nonetheless, as it’s been a minute since I’ve gone to any live shows.

OH speaking of my sister, she’s been pestering me to join a gym (I mean, I lift weights at home... sometimes) since the last 3 weeks, so I MIGHT go starting tomorrow? I dunno, man.

Currently listening to Michael Jackson as I write this. My most-played song this week was Voyager, by Daft Punk. Deep. Introspective. Feels.

Until next time.

Week 32, 2025: Card games (and other notes from a damp week)

2025-08-10T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

(Note: The title length is directly proportional to the number of Sufjan Stevens tracks I listened to while writing this.)

It rained a lot this week, mostly in the evenings. A minor tragedy for my commute. Work took up most of my time, and I’ve been in focus mode for much of it. Definitely felt a tad low on energy this week. Not complaining; it is what it is.

At the office, we marked the interns’ final week with card games — Sequence and Mafia. I enjoyed both, although my Mafia performance suggested I should not consider espionage as a fallback career (I was Detective twice)! We also went out for dinner at Haiku. Spirits were high. (So were chopsticks!)

My new car remains more of a parking lot sculpture than a mode of transport. I did take it out today. The Ronin received similar token attention. Both seem forgiving. All in good time?

I picked up Dark Matter, by Blake Crouch again. My Kindle has been collecting dust all this time, as have my reading goals.

My most-played song this week was GOD., by Kendrick Lamar.

Until next time.

Week 31, 2025: It’s ...Syros time?

2025-08-03T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

(Note to self: Once again this week, the title corniness continues. Sorry not sorry!)

Biggest news first: the car’s here! After what felt like months of waiting and tracking every dispatch update like it was a space mission, the Syros has officially landed. It's sleek, smooth, and quietly becoming part of my routine? Still feels a little surreal.

My family’s completely taken with it — my dad is very keen on driving it, which feels both flattering and mildly alarming. (Grr!)

I've been driving it around the neighborhood; slowly easing into it. Mostly short trips for now. Getting used to it.

Outside of four wheels, I’ve been back on two. I guess riding’s becoming a bit of a habit again. Nothing too fancy; just a way to step out, clear the head, and feel the wind. There’s something satisfying about cruising with no real destination. It’s been a good way to pause and take a breath.

Also, I got around to doing a health checkup yesterday. The doctor gently (read: firmly) nudged me towards joining a gym? We shall see. My weight is actually OK for my height, so no special diets for me. Although they did ask me to cut down on my junk food intake. Huh.

I haven’t been watching much of anything. No shows to report, no clever commentary on TV. Just the occasional YouTube randomness when my brain wants snackable nonsense over story arcs. I do want to get back to watching Ted Lasso, though.

Today, I played a little bit of Bloodborne. I even streamed a little bit of it on my YouTubez. (Also, if you stumble across other Bloodborne videos on my channel... yes, that was me too.) It’s still my favorite game and it always finds a way back into rotation.

Most-played song this week: Holiday, by Green Day.

Until next time!

Week 30, 2025: It’s Ronin time

2025-07-27T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

(Note to self: I know the title is corny – it’s the best I could come up with. Sorry not sorry. 🙈)

It rained most of the week. The kind of steady, unremarkable rain that makes you stare out the window a lot and reconsider every outdoor plan.

Work was hectic, too. It’s all looking OK, though.

I got my new motorcycle this week: the Ronin (pictured below) that I mentioned in my previous week notes! I spent most of the week looking at it parked downstairs though, because of the rains and whatnot. I’ve started buying proper riding gear this week, too!

Also, I like what Ronin means. Something about the idea of it — moving on your own terms — feels good at the moment.

The rains finally gave up this morning. I took the bike out for its first, proper long ride, in the evening. The roads were dry and open, it was sunny, and it felt good to just keep going.

My most-played song this week was The Only Living Boy in New York, by Simon and Garfunkel. It matched the wet, rainy vibes. Or maybe it just made the rain feel like it matched something.

Until next time!

Week 29, 2025: More green, less screen?

2025-07-20T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

Work this week was the usual blur — nothing groundbreaking, just the steady churn of productivity.

Tuesday brought a rare break from the usual screen glow. I volunteered for a tree-planting drive at work. Oddly, I was the only one wearing gardening gloves. There are photos of us looking outdoorsy — smiling, crouched, a tad proud. Planting a sapling had a bit of a calming effect. The tree goes in the ground. You pour in the soil, pat it down. Done.

Pictured below: the sapling I planted.

It rained through the weekend, which meant all plans were quietly cancelled by the universe. I’d been hoping to watch the new Superman movie, but bailed at the last minute — some streets were waterlogged, and I wasn’t in the mood to drive (or wade) through all of that.

I tried creating some generative art on Saturday. I opened the editor, messed around with setting up the file — then ended up just lying on the bed. So it quietly turned into a procrastination session. Not the worst way to spend a rainy afternoon.

In more exciting news: I’m planning to buy the TVS Ronin on Monday. I’ll be honest, I’m partly buying it because I want to believe I’m the kind of person who rides to clear their head. We’ll see how it goes.

My most-played track this week was From Yesterday, by Thirty Seconds to Mars. Nostalgic.

Until next time!

Week 28, 2025: Everything in motion

2025-07-13T00:00:00Z

G’day folks.

The week passed in the usual fog of meetings, Slack pings, Figma comments, and tabs I meant to read. In other words, work was busy.

I also slept a lot this week. Just an acknowledgment to self. (I overslept on one of the week days, even!)

I had plans to go see the new Superman movie. Naturally, finding tickets was super tricky. By the time I checked earlier in the week, the only seats left were front row, far left. Nein danke.

I finally booked the Kia Syros today! Delivery is expected in 2 weeks / roughly by the end of the month! 🎉

Also went bike-hopping this weekend. I test rode a few; the TVS Ronin and Honda CB350 RS/H’ness are currently in pole position. They’re among the few bikes that don’t make me look like a circus act on wheels. For a 6’4” person, that’s not nothing. I’ve tried plenty of motorcycles, and almost all of them felt like a compromise. These ones actually fit.

The H’ness, in particular, seems built with both rider and pillion in mind — rare generosity. The Ronin and RS, on the other hand, are great for solo rides, but I’m not entirely sure how comfortable they’d be for a pillion sitting behind me. That feels like a future problem. I’m sure they’ll let me know.

Decision fatigue is real, and I’ve noticed it somehow only shows up after the decision. Until then, it’s just an endless loop of tabs and YouTube reviews masquerading as “research”, when really you’re just chasing gut feelings in slow motion.

My most-played track this week was Hellraiser (30th Anniversary Edition), by Ozzy Osbourne and Lemmy. A song that sounds exactly like what it is — two rock legends yelling into the void with guitars for punctuation. Comforting, if I do say so myself.

Until next time!

Week 27, 2025: High speed, medium anxiety

2025-07-06T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week was a tad eventful!

I watched F1 on Monday. I really enjoyed it, and would definitely recommend. The movie itself was great, but the theater was absolute chaos. People were hooting, hollering, and laughing at the oddest moments… honestly one of the worst movie-going experiences I’ve had in my life (so far!), but hey — it is what it is, I suppose.

Wednesday was really fun, too. We had a work outing at a local resort, and I ended up playing Uno and other card games indoors with my work mates. I got a bit buzzed, completely messed up the rules for whatever game we were playing, and couldn’t stop laughing probably on account of me being buzzed. 10/10 chaos. Quite memorable. Would do again.

That said, I’ve also been feeling a bit anxious in the latter part of this week. No real reason, just some existential noise about life, family/parents, the future, etc. Nothing too dramatic or serious. Just vibes. Not pleasant ones, obviously. I’ve been keeping my emotions in check and keeping it together. Keepin’ things real and bein’ vulnerable over here, yo.

I did consider getting back to making generative art over the weekend. I opened Cursor, stared at some old sketches, changed a variable or two, then closed my laptop. So… a productive session, by some definition. I’ve been watching random videos on YouTube, and some Ted Lasso episodes for a healthy dose of (fictional) optimism.

This week’s most played song was 528 Hz Anxiety Relief, by Miracle Tones (it doesn’t work for me — no surprise. HAHA), and Aníron, by Enya (this one calms me, because of Enya’s amazing voice). I’ve mostly been listening to Ambient music this week.

OH! and I’ve decided on a car: the Kia Syros. Might book one next week (or the week after). Let’s fucking go.

Until next time.

Week 26, 2025: Another short one

2025-06-29T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

(Mid-year week note! Woot!!!)

Another short post this week — that’s three in a row now, if you’re keeping score. (Not that I’m sure if anyone’s even reading these, to be honest.)

Mid-week, my back gave up. Then, a migraine joined the party. I blame the bus I take to commute. Not fun. Let’s leave it at that.

Yesterday, I took my sister to her driving test. She passed. Woot!!!

Tomorrow, I’m going to the cinemas to watch F1: The Movie with my dad and sis.

This week’s most-played song was Carbonated, by Mount Kimbie.

Until next time.

Week 25, 2025: Cooked by LLM

2025-06-22T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week's post, once again, like last week, and the week before, will be short. I've been super busy at work.

I didn't do much either — mostly been binging Ted Lasso this weekend. Comfy.

This morning, out of sheer boredom, I decided to ask ChatGPT what my name means. (For the record, I don't know what my name means, and my parents don't either. The pronunciation also varies quite often.)

I do know thanks to a quick google search that it's apparently a feminine (?) name in Malaysia and Singapore. I also learned that it's derived from or related to either Sanskrit or Tamil. (That's mighty helpful. Truly revelatory. Indeed.)

Anyway, today ChatGPT was quite brutal in one of its definitions for my name.

One who carries grace quietly, with a sincerity mistaken for foolishness.

Boom, roasted. Sick burn, even. Absolutely cooked.

I've been laughing at that like an idiot for the last 5 minutes.

This week's most-played song was Holocene, by Bon Iver. Comfy.

Until next time.

Week 24, 2025: Slow country

2025-06-15T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

Once again, this week's note will be short. It was a full week at work, and I didn’t have much left over for leisure or creative pursuits.

I bought a Bluetooth speaker on Saturday. It sounds much better than the default speakers on my iPad mini, and the difference is clear. Small joys, indeed.

Most of the weekend was spent relaxing; alternating between lying down and sitting slightly more upright. Rest, I suppose.

I finished The Idiot by Dostoyevsky this week, and started reading Dark Matter by Blake Crouch today. I'm just two chapters in, so far. (I know there's a TV adaptation, but I can't be bothered watching it.)

Here’s to hoping the next week has a bit more variety.

This week's most played song was Magical Mystery Tour, by The Beatles.

The title of this weeknote is a reference to a song called Slow Country, by Gorillaz, where nothing much happens. Re-late-able.

Until next time.

Week 23, 2025: ½ (1 + √5)

2025-06-08T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week's note will be short, as nothing eventful happened. Mostly just work, work, work.

Over the weekend, I returned to making some generative art. I challenged myself to return to basics and create something that is simple and minimal.

It took me a while to get back into the groove, but I managed to create a simple Truchet-style grid based on the golden ratio.

Below are 2 outputs I wish to share with the world on this fine Sunday. (I want to keep building on this mini-project.)

Maths is wonderful. And this is coming from a person who absolutely sucked at maths in school. Well, in terms of my academics anyway... Artistic applications notwithstanding, it's pretty damn handy to understand certain concepts, if I do say so myself.

Until next time.

Week 22, 2025: Thirty two

2025-06-01T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week I turned 32.

I didn’t throw a party or make a big deal out of it — but I did get cake, so that counts. I also had dinner with my sister at Cream Centre, which mostly involved good food, catching up, and some more dessert from Conçu.

I spent most of my time with family — lots of food, smiles, and minimal emotional intensity. Just the way I like it.

Thirty two doesn’t feel particularly different. But it has a nice ring to it. It low-key feels like a quietly confident number; knows what it’s about, doesn’t need the spotlight. I will take that energy. Perhaps I'm imparting too much meaning to a number. Eh. Numbers.

In other news...

Work chugged along. A few open loops closed, a few new ones opened. The usual rhythm. I didn’t try to make the week special, but somehow it still felt nice. C’est la routine.

Today I caught up with a couple of ex-colleagues from NCR — the first time in almost seven months. It felt really good to reconnect. We went to a cosy place called Daily Rituals, and I had a spicy guava drink that was excellent. (I had it twice even!)

We talked about life, work, side projects. One of them is publishing a new book soon(!). Hearing about her process and excitement was very inspiring. It rubbed off on both of us; the kind of conversation that leaves you feeling a little more lit up than before. I definitely aim to make more time for side projects. Always be makin' stuff, ya know?

Our conversations always turn out that way — honest, uplifting, and just the right mix of silly and sincere. Very fortunate to know them both.

Oh, and in regards to my Car Hunt™, I was apparently too big for the i20 so I test drove the Kia Syros today, and I'm now dead set on buying it. It just feels perfect for me in every conceivable way.

Until next time. Inspire. ✨

Week 21, 2025: Cinemas, cars, and comfort TV

2025-05-25T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

I missed last week's note as I had family over, and between all the catching up and chaos, there wasn’t much worth reporting. Mostly work. Meh.

This week, though? Much more eventful.

I kicked things off by watching the latest Mission: Impossible movie (The Final Reckoning) at the local cinema with my work mates. I liked it and I would rate it 4 out of 5 stars. I honestly can't remember the last time I was in a theater, and it felt great to be back in front of the big screen. I’m considering going again tomorrow with my dad.

Why stop at one? I also watched Sinners by myself at the theater today. Definitely highly recommended. That makes two movies in a week — who am I?!

I ordered a denim jacket and a pair of white Converse Chuck Taylor 70s. Honestly, this decision was partly inspired by a convo with a friend about me not looking my age a while ago, and he joked that I should deck myself out in denim head to toe. Challenge accepted, Mathias. Also also, I think this might just be the year of jackets for me. Returning to my roots, baby.

I also test drove two Hyundai cars — the Exter and Venue, but neither suited me well. Being tall has its perks, but car shopping isn’t one of them. The cabins felt cramped and stuffy. Then I checked out the Suzuki Baleno at a Nexa showroom, and it felt much more spacious and accommodating. It’s currently leading the race to be my first car. Woot! (I am still planning to check out the i20 before I decide.)

In between all that, I’ve been binging Ted Lasso. It's exactly the kind of funny and wholesome energy I needed. Pure comfort TV.

Oh, and I finally finished reading Pet Sematary by Stephen King — a book I began way back in January this year. Better late than never. I’ve now started The Idiot by Fyodor Dostoyevsky. Let’s see if I can reclaim last year’s reading streak.

Until next time. ✌️

Week 19, 2025: Good company

2025-05-11T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week was good! I got to spend time with people and just hang out — something that felt like a much-needed breather. Nothing grand — just quiet conversations, small moments, and a lot of laughter.

But that normalcy felt like a medicine I didn’t realise I needed. It reminded me how much lighter things can feel when you are around people who get you, even if they come from different parts of your life.

I’m ending the week feeling happy and grateful.

Until next time.

Week 18, 2025: Witness me

2025-05-04T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week was spent recovering from whatever I was going through the last week. It's been tough, but I’m grateful to be on the path to finding the right people to connect with.

I took a break from work and embraced the long weekend. I had made some plans to escape to a hill station. Sadly, all the good places were booked solid. So, the trip’s been bumped to the end of the month.

I’ve spent the past few days resting, recharging, and watching movies (finally!). I missed Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga last year, so I caught it on streaming — and I really liked it. Highly recommended! I then ended up watching Mad Max: Fury Road twice afterward. Honestly, I could watch Furiosa drive into a sandstorm on loop and feel inspired.

As May rolls in, I’m hoping for a little more gentleness — from the world, sure, but mostly from myself. I’ve been reflecting on change and how easy it is to overthink, especially when you're alone.

Oddly enough, Instagram’s algorithm has been showing me shorts that weirdly align with what I’m feeling right now. I haven’t posted anything on Instagram lately — not even a story, so I don’t know how it picked up on that. Some of the videos say that this phase of discomfort is just a sign of incoming change, like the universe is clearing out old energy or something. I don’t know how much I believe in all that — it feels a tad superstitious. But then again, maybe there's something in it. I don't know. It feels nice to hope, I guess.

Until next time. Stay hydrated. Be kind to yourself. And if you can’t go to the hills, at least take a nap.

Week 17, 2025: re:build

2025-04-27T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week was pretty rough — I had a breakdown... of sorts.

It happened after months of internalising my thoughts and not sharing/talking about them to anyone. I haven’t really had anyone to share them with. Except my trusty journal, I suppose. But that only works to a certain extent.

I wouldn't wish this state upon anyone.

I believe I'm resilient and that I will get through this. It felt good to open up and finally talk about it.

In the past, I would pour all of that energy into making art or creating something — it was cathartic. It felt like a release. Plus, I had folks that I trusted and could talk to at any time.

Unfortunately, in the present, I don't think I have either — I haven't really had the time to make time to do other stuff.

I've mostly taken time to focus inward and get back to building back my confidence. I like to think the past me would take a look at current me, shake his head in disapproval, and ask the following:

What have you become, my sweetest friend?
What are you afraid of? What is all this Fear about?
Why are you so LOST lately?

Anyway, this too shall pass.

I've also gone back to working out intensely over the last three days. My body is sore, but it's a good kind of sore — a reminder that I'm moving forward. In fact, I am writing this after a morning workout sesh. Woot!

Along with focusing on my body, I'm also trying to heal mentally. It's not an overnight process. I'm reminding myself that I am enough — and returning to the mindset that I can't control everything beyond me.

I'm trying to rebuild trust and confidence in myself, little by little, and be kinder to the person I see in the mirror.

Until next time.

Week 16, 2025: Mildly burnt toast

2025-04-20T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week was a vibe. Mostly the “mildly burnt toast” kind. Not quite crispy, but definitely a little too warm around the edges.

Energy levels? Firmly in ‘low power mode’ — blinking, but still technically on.

I did enjoy the long weekend. I planned and was supposed to go to a pottery workshop... but I didn't. No reason in particular. The clay remains unshaped.

Also, it rained heavily on Friday — a perfect match for my internal forecast. It was great, but then, nature threw in a plot twist with a power cut. We lost power for about 4 hours thanks to a fallen tree. Guess it was nature’s way of saying, “Time for a break from screens!”

I did manage to write another blog post though, which you can check out. A small win!

Here’s to hoping next week has a little more energy and a fun surprise or two. Carpe diem!

Until next time.

Week 15, 2025: Space Cowboy

2025-04-13T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week's felt long — again. Just like last week, it’s been wall-to-wall work stuff, with barely any room for social interactions. Just me and my trusty to-do list. Enough said.

On the plus side, the weekend was slow. I used the time to reconnect with myself — which, in practice, meant writing another blog post and briefly considering meditation before deciding to scroll aimlessly instead. Still, I did write something on Saturday. Personal growth. (Boy, I am on a streak now, aren't I? — Don't want to jinx it!)

It’s been a while since I picked up a game, and diving into Red Dead Redemption has me vicariously living the life of a lone cowboy — wandering the plains, soaking in sunsets, and taking long, contemplative rides through the wilderness. Honestly? It kind of mirrors how life feels lately. A little solitary, a little aimless, but oddly peaceful. Just me, my horse, and the occasional side quest.

Also, I went café hopping with my sister again — this time to a spot called True Black. Tried their matcha creme. Verdict: very green, very good. Tasted like what I assume peaceful monks sip before they float away.

Until next time.

Week 14, 2025: PAUL

2025-04-06T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week’s been pretty uneventful. There was a holiday in between — much needed downtime — but overall? Kind of 'bleh'. Not much to report.

I titled this post “PAUL” after a French café I went to in the city with my sister last Sunday. It was a lovely spot. Highly recommend.

I did write a longer blog post this week — a little memoir about a late-night encounter I think I’ve journaled before, but I can’t be bothered to dig it up.

Until next time!

Week 13, 2025: 挑戦

2025-03-30T00:00:00Z

G'day folks. Long time no see.

Been busy, and the last thing I wanted to do after a full week of work was open my laptop. That explain my absence? Good.

So, what have I been up to, you ask? Not much, my friend. Just keeping my head down, living the routine life — work, home, repeat. It’s been challenging, and most of my time has gone toward that. Haven't had much time for other things — reading or working out (though I am keeping fit). Yep, I've been reeeeaal busy.

This past week, though, I took a breather. I attended an office party on Wednesday and had fun sharing drinks with mates, dancing, and socialising.

This weekend, I finally got back into generative art. Currently working on a few quilt patterns, since I completely fell behind on Genuary 2025. Grr! It's been a hot minute. Turns out, I haven't lost my touch!

I even wrote a blog post today — something I haven’t done in a while. I want to keep my blog active and have a few ideas in terms of themes and topics I want to write about.

Oh, and the song of this week is DARE, by Gorillaz.

Until next time.

(P.S: I decree today that I shall post every Sunday from now on.)

Week 52, 2024: F91-(FT)W

2024-12-29T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

My watches arrived this week, and it feels nostalgic to return to owning a Casio watch—or two, in my case. I picked up two vintage variants: the F91-W and A168. I also got a Timex analog that has a yellow dial, though it seems to be an homage to the Citizen Tsuyosa. Not too shabby.

Today, I visited a bookstore and stumbled upon a secondhand copy of The Earthsea Quartet by Ursula K. Le Guin—amazingly, a first edition print of the volume! It’s been on my reading list for ages, and finding it at such a dirt-cheap price felt like a steal. Absolutely worth it.

This week, I finished reading The Stand and the Genghis Khan [Mongol] history book. I am actually proud of myself for sticking to my goal. I loved The Stand, although I found the ending a bit rushed. I might definitely do a re-read again. It feels like that kind of a book, especially considering the pandemic that we collectively went through recently.

I picked up Howl's Moving Castle, by Diana Wynne Jones to end the year with a light and easy fantasy read, and I’m enjoying it so far. Speaking of fantasy, I’m also loving my playthrough of Final Fantasy VII Remake. Honestly, I’m wondering why I didn’t play it sooner.

This week's most-played song is Here and Now, by Letters to Cleo.

Until next time.

Weeks 50 & 51, 2024: Rewind

2024-12-22T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

I missed logging a week, so this week's note will cover both Week 50 and Week 51.

With the obvious out of the way, I'll start with week 50. On Saturday (Dec 14, 2024), I met up with another ex-NCR colleague of mine at a local café. It was great catching up with him, as we had only ever talked virtually while working remotely.

Apart from that, over the past two weeks, work has been keeping me busy. The main reason there has been break in me making art is the long and exhausting commute to work, which takes up so much of my time. I’m still trying to figure out a schedule that works, but I’m looking forward to getting back to creating soon.

On the subject of time, I’m thinking of doing a recap post for 2024 sometime next week. This year has been brutal and by far the most challenging one yet. It’s taught me a lot about myself—about enduring hardships and recognizing the importance of the people and relationships in my life. (Real recognize real.) That said, I’m grateful for where I am now. The move to Canada didn't go as expected, but in many ways, it’s been a crucial part of this transformative journey.

On a related note, I’ve been diving deep into watches after I broke my Apple Watch. I dropped it, and now the screen is cracked (still works fine, though). Turns out, the repair costs are basically the same as getting a new one. So, I’m DONE. I was also getting tired of constantly being pinged with messages, calls, workouts, and all that jazz. Time to get back to basics.

I’ve ordered three new (quartz) watches, which should arrive sometime next week. I can’t wait. (Someday, I’ll treat myself to an Automatic.) In the meantime, I’ve also started an inspiration board on good ol' Pinterest for watches.

In terms of rest and recreation, I’m still reading the two books I mentioned in a weeknote from two weeks ago (I think). I have also started playing through Final Fantasy VII Remake. I played the original (PS1) version a few years ago but never finished it, and I’m really enjoying the fresh, modern direction of the remake.

This week's song is tv off, by Kendrick Lamar. Can't stop listening — SUCH A FUN TRACK. MUSTAAAAAAARRRRDDD.

Until next time.

Week 49, 2024: Moving

2024-12-08T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week has been a bit hectic, so not much progress on generative art! I spent a lot of time helping my parents settle in, unpack, and arrange things after their move. I also wasn’t feeling too great earlier in the week, so this note will be short.

Amidst all the moving in the latter part of the week, I met two ex-co-workers at a local café on Saturday, which was a major highlight. We spent the entire day catching up, and I didn’t even realise where the time went—it was so much fun to reconnect after a year!

Until next time!

Week 48, 2024: Pulsewidth

2024-12-01T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

[Post title reference: Pulsewidth by Aphex Twin.]

Progress this week has been a tad slow, much like last week. That said, I’ve been exploring an idea that’s been on my list for a while—working with and animating elements within a grid system.

Recreation time: I started playing Fallout 4, and it’s been a blast (no pun intended) so far! This week, I also watched Iron Man 2 (for nostalgia), and Detective Pikachu (because I honestly forgot what it was about since I last saw it.)

I finished reading Project Hail Mary and picked up two books: Genghis Khan and the Making of the Modern World by Jack Weatherford, and The Stand by Stephen King. The latter is quite lengthy, but I’m hoping to finish it and close the year strong.

This week's songs are squabble up by Kendrick Lamar, and Civilization (Bongo, Bongo, Bongo) by Andrews Sisters & Danny Kaye.

Until next time.

Week 47, 2024: Trax

2024-11-24T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

Progress has been a tad slow this week, however I've been working through the Truchet/Trax tile ideas from last week!

Below is an output, generated from an algorithm written in Processing.

Another output below, but this time produced using JavaScript + Canvas API. I know I said it was a pain in the ass last time, but it's been a good exercise in terms of figuring it out. Yay.

Next, I want to animate the tiles and possibly explore a variant using the wave function collapse technique, inspired by an interaction I had on Bluesky.

In terms of recreation, I finished reading The Silmarillion, Beren and Lúthien, and The Hobbit, by J. R. R. Tolkien. It is always fun reading Tolkien's works, and The Hobbit just might be one of my comfort reads. This year is proving to be great in terms of my readings.

I picked up Project Hail Mary by Andy Weir a couple of days ago and am presently more than halfway through it. I can't stand his writing style — more specifically with how Weir writes characters, dialogues between characters, and the inner voice the main character has... and it reminds me of The Martian at a few points. A little too juvenile for my liking, it seems.

I've been watching Star Trek: The Next Generation on Netflix — mainly a couple of episodes here and there.

Kendrick Lamar dropped his new record (surprise!), GNX, last Friday, and I'm digging the sound. What a fantastic year for music!

Until next time.

Week 46, 2024: Truchet tiles

2024-11-17T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week, I've been experimenting more with the 'Bloem' piece from last week. I've mainly been working with adding a rotation to the flower (which took up a LOT of my time). A friend provided some input, ideas, and suggestions, and he also pointed out that the design looks rangoli-ish which I hadn’t considered, but he's pretty spot-on.

Along with adding a rotation, I also experimented with a hue shift to the petals, again thanks to an idea from the same friend.

In addition to that, I spent some time figuring out quarter-circle Truchet tiles (Wikipedia). This time, I focused on creating a Truchet effect using quarter-circles instead of lines from before.

Made used Processing—because working with arcs in JavaScript is a major pain in the ass (for me). That said, I might still attempt it in JS for the learning experience.

I have some more plans for using the truchet tile outputs from above. I am currently working through an idea I have, and would like to see how it ends up. Figuring out tile orientation and the maths behind it presently.

In terms of rest and relaxation, I finished reading Doctor Sleep, and started reading Beren and Lúthien along with The Silmarillion by J. R. R. Tolkien. I remember reading The Lord of the Rings around this same time last year—a curious pattern likely of interest to no one but myself.

I haven't kept up with my Arrested Development rewatch—it's been pretty on-and-off, but I think I last left off near the end of Season 2.

Until next time!

Week 45, 2024: Bloem

2024-11-10T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

("Bloem" = Dutch for "bloom")

I've spent heaps of time working on another artwork this week.

I wanted to create a simple, organic pattern inspired by flowers. Using javascript and canvas api, I built a grid of 'petals' radiating from the center, scaling and adjusting their transparency based on distance from the center. I then added a riso color palette and linearly interpolated the color transition. Balancing opacity, scale, and color transitions took me a lot of iterations — but I’m happy with how it captures the organic, flowery idea I had!

As always, here’s the link to my posts on instagram and reddit—for viewing the animation in its full glory (can't post the video here because of its sheer size), and for a bit of backlinking, of course.

I’ve also been thinking of starting a Tumblr to log all my work-in-progress pieces that didn’t make the final cut, in addition to finished works. However, I already have a work archive channel on my Are.na. Whew, that’s a lot of links, isn’t it?

In terms of fun stuff, I've been rewatching one of my all-time favourite comedy shows, Arrested Development. I can still quote characters verbatim to this day, and it NEVER gets old.

I finished reading both The Fall of Hyperion AND The Shining this past week, and I've begun reading Doctor Sleep to close out The Shining series. All books listed here highly recommended to anyone reading this.

This week's song is Alarm Call, by Björk (beepbeep-beepbeep-beep...).

Until next time.

Week 44, 2024: More arc experiments

2024-11-03T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

I've had a somewhat less busy week (though still busy), after pushing myself over the last two weeks on the abstract piece that I've now titled "Cascade" (which I showcased in last week's weeknote for any curious readers). Also posted it on instagram, and reddit.

I've also been working on various generative experiments here and there; outputs below.

In terms of free time, I've been reading a lot. I finished Hyperion— amazing book, highly recommended for sci-fi and fantasy fans. I instantly purchased the second book in the series The Fall of Hyperion and am presently halfway through it. Alongside that, I started reading The Shining by Stephen King.

I've also been playing Chess, and (re-)playing Bloodborne on the side—close to the endgame now—I will never get bored of it.

Until next time!

Week 43, 2024: Cascade

2024-10-27T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week, I've mostly been continuing my generative art journey at full steam.

I wanted to explore randomness and movement. I began by first generating the classic 10print program using JS + Canvas API.

With that accomplished, I added different variables to alter the 'brush strokes', and math functions to distort the underlying pattern grid. I also added riso colors in the end. Below are some outputs from my experiments!

Once again, here is a live demo with variables that can be changed to produce different outputs.

And below is a video showing a quick animation test; very basic at the moment—yet satisfying.

Until next time.

Week 42, 2024: Bauhaus arc(s)

2024-10-20T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

This week I've been coding heaps — mostly in Processing, but I also decided to switch things up and sketch creative stuff using plain old Javascript, using the canvas sketch API.

More specifically, I worked on a sketch that produces a grid of arcs that moves using a sine/noise based wave function. Bauhaus style baby.

Here is a live demo of the sketch hosted on Github!

In the link above, one can change inputs to control the output, and can then either Ctrl/Cmd + S to save a frame of animation. Pretty cool.

Below are outputs showing both wave functions, in video format.

Sine function output below (uniformity).

Using a 3-dimensional simplex noise function below (randomness).

In terms of recreational stuff, I managed to fully clear a stage in the RE4 Mercenaries mode (S+ rank!) Achievement get?

I started reading Hyperion by Dan Simmons today, after finishing Skeleton Crew. I think I've said this in my other week notes and I will say it again — it's great and well worth your time. All the shorts are amazing and have given me a good introduction to Stephen King's writing.

I have also been listening to a lot of Let It Be by The Beatles after watching the Get Back documentary; Paul McCartney is such a powerhouse in terms of creativity and his passion for the art (and the band) truly showed, and John Lennon's quips/antics were quite funny. Felt very inspired. ✨

Along with that, I listened to Björk's Post and Homogenic albums, which I've been meaning to listen to for quite some time.

Today though, I've pretty much been bumping this amazing song on repeat: Image by Magdalena Bay. So well produced.

Until next time.

Week 41, 2024: Alla prima

2024-10-13T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

Not much happened this past week (aside from the mundane)—just waiting for job updates.

On the creative side, I've been messing around with image manipulation through code, trying to recreate a painterly (alla prima) effect for photos I've taken, using an algorithm I found online. After some trial and error I got a few decent results. Check them out below!

Here's an animated video of the effect!

As for downtime, I wrapped up both Resident Evil 4 and its DLC Separate Ways, and am now playing through the Mercenaries mode—really intense and endlessly fun.

Until next time.

Week 40, 2024: Whaddit I Done

2024-10-06T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

Pretty uneventful week on my end. I haven't done anything of note as I've been busy prepping for and giving more interviews.

I haven't done much in terms of creative exercises either. I've been experimenting with creative coding this week to keep the momentum going, but there's nothing noteworthy to share. I'm considering picking up a few courses or lessons to dig deeper into it.

In terms of reading, I'm still making my way through Skeleton Crew—just a few pages and chapters here and there. I've also been reading some articles on generative algorithms to learn and understand how creative coding works.

On the gaming front, I finished the Resident Evil remake (playing as Chris) and I immediately started a new game, this time with Jill! I also started playing the Resident Evil 4 remake, and I LOVE it. I played the original version back in the day on PS2 but never finished it. Capcom has done an amazing job with the RE4 remake. I'm also excited to check out Silent Hill 2, which came out last week!

As I write this, I'm listening to Sung Tongs, by Animal Collective. They released a live album of their 2018 performance and an album reissue to celebrate its 20th anniversary.

There were a couple of new record releases last Friday that I'm super keen on:

The New Sound, by Geordie Greep — I love black midi and am fascinated by Mr. Greep. I'm really looking forward to exploring the direction he's headed in.
Cutouts, by The Smile — I listened to Wall of Eyes a ton this year and am eager to dive into their newest release. (Also, two album releases in one year! Let's fucking goooo!)
Selected Ambient Works Volume II (Expanded Edition), by Aphex Twin (*re-release) — A classic! I can't wait to hear the expanded tracks when working. Stone in Focus is finally available on streaming! Yes!
Absolute Elsewhere, by Blood Incantation — Heard good things about the album being a mix of prog rock and metal? I'm excited to dive into their cosmic sounds.

Until next time—Toodles!

Week 39, 2024: Onwards and upwards

2024-09-29T00:00:00Z

G'day folks.

I've been busy balancing house hunting and job interviewing this week. Some interviews were especially stressful and didn't go well. Not complaining, just rolling with it. Life happens, and you take things in stride.

I also felt a tad existential on the side. Again, not complaining—simply acknowledging. At the end of the day, I see this period as a form of growth. You have got to keep a sense of humor about it all, I suppose. In the end, I'm hoping to catch a break. Onwards and upwards.

On a lighter note, I've been keeping up with different side projects and fun creative ideas. I've made some progress on the branding and identity for Studio Finch (getting close!), and am working on posters and other fun ideas whenever the muse strikes.

The first R4 poster below is very much work in progress; still in the process of exploring ideas.

I'm also thinking about participating in a contest to design an 80s neon-themed landing page, just for fun. That led to me designing an 80s neon logotype in Figma. Fun fun fun. (Void Sauce™️ is an inside joke between me and a friend.)

I explored creative coding a bit and was able to produce this work which I call Stillness. It was pretty satisfying once I figured things out, but it definitely took me a long time. I'm not great at maths or converting abstractions into logic, but I reckon I'm getting better. I just have to keep at it.

Despite the busyness, I've been playing some Resident Evil (2002) here and there and I think I'm nearing the end. After playing RE2 remake this game felt old and dated, but it's still very playable and fun to this day. I've also been listening to a lot of thrash and black metal this week.

Today I finished reading The Mist by Stephen King and absolutely loved it. I really enjoy his writing style, and am keen on diving into more of his short stories in Skeleton Crew.

Until next time. Toodles!

Week 38, 2024: Picking up generative art

2024-09-22T00:00:00Z

First week note! Woot!

It hasn't been a particularly exciting week in terms of my daily life. I've been helping my parents with house hunting, which has taken up a bit of my time. Other than that, I spent most of yesterday cleaning my mechanical keyboard. It had been a while, so I spent a lot of time brushing all the keycaps in warm, soapy water to get them extra clean and shiny. Very satisfying.

In terms of work, things have been eventful. First, I've been learning to code using Processing and am making good progress. I've been interested in making generative art for a long time now, and I'm excited to finally start exploring it. Also I made some updates to this blog—refactoring some of the code and adding two sections to my Info page—sharing the tools I use and my general interests.

I also set up a folder structure for Obsidian (I'm currently writing my post in it!) My goal is to use it to better organise my ideas, thoughts, and writings. Since I tend to consume a lot of information, I want to bring some order to my notes so I can use/refer to them mindfully later. I think it'll also help me better organise my writing by giving me a single source of truth for all my notes.

I have been talking to a friend about starting our own design studio. We've been working on a website and designing the branding around it. The studio is going to be called "Finch". Pretty exciting to see it come to life!

Also, I rewatched this really great movie, My Cousin Vinny today. It's my dad's favourite, and it still makes me laugh every time. Marisa Tomei's performance is so good. Highly recommended if you haven't seen it!

Until next time!